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About time

2011-10-26T00:15:00.001+08:00

Finally there's an app for blogger!! But why cant i view other blogs?!?! Bleh!! Leaving for africa on thursday. Gonna miss my baby...sigh :((( miss u so much already.

hard times

2011-08-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

Slander: Spoken defamation of character

now i dont have a untarnished reputation but i sure as hell know when to admit i am at fault. that being said i just strongly believe that u can tell ur whole kampong whatever u wanna say. everyone will always choose to believe in the things the majority gravitates to.

also,everyone is a selfish,fucked up,backstabbing whore.

i wanna transfer outta this ward cuz there's really no point if the majority of the cohort hates our fucking guts!! how can anyone work in such an oppressive environment.
sigh

just gonna depend on my baby and bestie. thats all i can do to pull through
I LOVE U BABY JO!! MUACKSSSSS

im gonna put it all on the line again

2011-07-19T01:19:00.003+08:00

a new era has begun
the jocasster one....still havent found a good name yet. will follow up.
she came over,hugged me to sleep,asked me if i would be there for her and i said yes, so here we are.

one thing though,4hours or sleep isnt fun when your on night again.
hungry,sleepy,tired and missing her.
conflicted,i dont know which should be first in line. im so nuah.....

replay in my mind i dunno why

2011-07-18T01:42:00.001+08:00

My life reads like the classifieds.
Pages of what's for sale; what's on the auction block.
Attention bidders! It's Lot 45.
He's got a decent voice, he's got that crooked smile.
Hold on, you haven't heard the best yet.
He writes good storylines, he's got those honest eyes.
So take him home for just $9.95.
He'll sing the songs you like, he'll keep you warm at night.

Back down, cash out, that's the city for ya.
Break down and back out, and get what's coming to you.
When you said you were falling apart I thought you meant that you were falling apart.

I'm not the type to forget about nights like this,
when every single move that I make is documented and scored for style points.
The once ambitious one now holds the smoking gun.
And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be?

Back down, cash out, that's the city for ya.
Break down and back out, and get what's coming to you.
When you said you were falling apart I thought you meant that you were falling apart.

Will you be the first one to tell the neighborhood paper
and all my family and friends that still care?
Did you buy what I sold and did you feel what I told you?
I hope that you still do. Will you promise yourself, that this isn't all we've got?

Back down, cash out, that's the city for ya.
Break down and back out, and get what's coming to you.
When you said you were falling apart I thought you meant that you were falling apart.

2 yrs on

2011-07-18T00:33:00.002+08:00

found my blogger account. YAY!!
so 2 yrs on and len and i are no more. Noel (the most recent one) and i are no more either.
just not fated to be attached really.
but there is someone on my mind (talking about stuff on my mind,i need to change my template badly...this was sooooo 2009)

single and happy with my awesome on my right and bestie on my left.
life couldnt be any better now. IM SO FRICKIN HAPPY I COULD GRIN MY LIFE AWAY!!!

2009-12-15T13:28:00.002+08:00

alright so hey hey everybody!!

we're in he beginning of our second week of PRCP. yesterday i managed a case...boy did i suck but im gonna do my best for tmr. IM OFF TODAY!! WOOT!

k so anyway. last friday i stayed over at lenny's cuz we had to bring cino the the vet to her all his matted fur shaved off. now he's a cute lil sphynx..wakakak!!

i still love him.

so the plan was for me to head home around 6pm on saturday but sis and her friends were over at my place cuz they were leaving for taiwan on sunday and had to be at the airport by 5am to check in. knowing them, they'd be late thus the sleep over.blessing in disguise cuz i asked mum and she said to come home on sunday. WOOT!! and the best part is I GOT TO ATTEND THE VERY FIRST MASS AT THE CHURCH OF THE DIVINE MERCY!! WHICH IS JUST OPPOSITE LENNY'S HOUSE!!! HOW COOL!! IT WAS FINALLY OPENED!!! AFTER SO LONG!!

so we were discussing what to do on sunday and we decided to head over to 313@somerset to checkout the sale at new look. boy did we get back on sunday evening with a shit load of stuff!!

lenny finally got her black leather bomber jacket which she craved for so dearly. it was going for 99.90 whilst at cotton on it was retailing at 139.90. STEAL!! i got a black jeans shirt dress for 19.90, faux jeans leggings for 19.90, blue heels for 19,90...ALL ON SALE!! and!! i applied for membership which meant $20 off the bomber jacket and additional 5% off all sales items which was everything!!! SO OMG!! VERY GOOD BUY!! i'd show u but they dont lemme take the pics form the actual site..maybe another time then!! wheeeee

being extremely pleased with our buys we headed back to lenny's place and cam whored!! its on my facebook profile so go check it out.

kinda excited to take 2 cases tmr but im just not confident..at all. but im gonna try my best.

I LOVE U LENNY!!

2009-10-27T16:03:00.002+08:00

another super late update. nothing new from yours truly.

maybe u should remove the tag box thing. no one uses it anyway.

alright so when i left u, i was about to begin my 1 month gerontology attachments.

now im done with attachments and awaiting my PRCP posting. god. not looking forward to it.

anyway. singapore's so fricking small that i met lenny's friend/NYP senior who just happens to be my SN! [hello mahira, im talking about you dodo bird] ahahah it was funny.

on the last day of work i gave all the nice staff kinder bueno surprise eggs and when i gave mai one i told her that i found her familiar cuz ive seen her from fridae. and we both were like 'OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!' with the constant head nodding. funny as hell. then she said 'i wanted to ask you but felt it was weird cuz the moment i saw u walk into the ward i knew u were queer.' funny thing is i wanted to do the exact same thing but yeah. okay thats good. atleast my face isnt so straight looking-ish.

i told len about mahira the night before so she came down on my last day to pick me up from work and to catch up with mahira. funny man. darn small world. lenny's on attachments now.she aint happy but its my turn to relax,she had hers so bah!

gek and i are cracking our brains out...where the hell do we go and what the hell are we gonna do for halloween this year? i got my corset but no venue. great. might not even celebrate frickin halloween this year at this rate.

i think its just me, but staying at home makes me darn sleepy...i feel like a pig. sleeping till 11am, waking up, watching tv, using the net and then sleeping later at 11pm...

total opposite from how life is on attachments. DREADING PRCP BY THE WAY. hate it.

2009-09-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

just my 4 pillars. XD and my cino baby baby baby love.

2009-09-27T18:44:00.002+08:00

its official. URTI has hit me for the 4th time now. i experience the following:

-severe sore throat

-copious amounts of phlegm that refuse to come out

-runny nose

-pain in my left ear upon swallowing

-hoarseness of voice and [this is new]

-generalized weakness

i think im hypoxic..subtle. but hypoxic none the less. maybe

whatever.

you know i hate myself. alot today

yesterday was just pure..evil.

didnt sleep at all.

parents were naggy.

i screwed up big time and lost my close friend..im so stupid. i want to kill myself really.

when i did manage to catch a short nap, i was interrupted countless times cuz the insurance agent was outside talking to them and they were laughing. any louder and they would be mistaken for having their own lil F1 race. so technically..i didnt nap at all.

then at night the symptoms started and they got worse today.

tmr i begin attachments.the next day is hell on earth and i wont have one of my pillars with me.

cassandra you fool

how could you do something like that!?

you fool...

2009-09-26T23:26:00.002+08:00

u know why i am acting this way. there's really no need to ask.

when u said stop, i did it.

when i said stop, you went ahead.

why do i want to see my close friends walk straight into the belly of the beast?

why do i want to see you experience the re-awakening of all feelings negative?

when it hurts it hurts. the words you say. and im sure that its all due to external stressors and i know i'm one of them. unnecessary.

but if you're happy i'll just be here on the side and really as long as u are happy...i couldnt care less about me and my overly emotional self.

im sorry to disappoint. im sorry for being a pain. im sorry for sticking my nose into such issues.

this is how much i care.

i do the same for the rest of my pillars and even more for family.

altruism..or so i hope to believe it is.

i'll learn to back down. i need to..my character is far too strong.

just know that..now

in this moment..

when you're soaring high up with her by your side

into the wide blue virgin canopy

look down occasionally, glance down and see

this small lil girl looking up at you with the trampoline

ready to break your fall if you ever do falter.

just remember me.

wont you sing with me

another song of freedom

its all i ever had.

redemption song

2009-09-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

alright! so this week was...rather relaxed which is good!!

monday was a public holiday cuz hari raya fell on a sunday so lenny and i hung out at gwc. watched the ugly truth which is a great show! chick flick yes but funny none the less. then it was off to ion orchard but we didnt stay long cuz the crowd was suffocating and i hated it. so then off to taka then to HMV and then to lenny's.

tuesday lenny had shift (A&E) so i met her after that.

wednesday was out with squid and sab. headed over to marina barrage to fly rainbow kite! [pictures on facebook]. the sun was SCORCHING HOT!! UNFORGIVING!! got sunburns on my face in the shape of my shades, forearms and mid thigh down. i thank god i wore a long sleeve shirt and rolled it up..yes it was black and i did pay for it but forearms better than whole arm sunburn so yesssss happy!!! sab was feeling faint so we headed off to marina square [marina barrage is a smoke-free facility!! fuck!!!] for milkshakes and well deserve fag sessionssss. after that was done i headed off the lenny's where i was manja-ed due to my sunburns. i surprised her by saying i couldnt stay over that night and when she found out she was estatic!! heeee. bought calamol lotion [calamine and menthol all in one for painful itchy sunburns..thanks baby love] and ive been applying it for 3 days now. no peeling so far and the tenderness has vamoooshed.

thursday woke up, had breakfast with lenny at the coffee shop opposite her house and then dropped her off at work. i hated that part. sigh. then i headed home.

then today! home the whole day. woke up at 2.30pm. nice.

tmr i have no idea what's in store for me. its probably along the lines of following mum and dad or heading over to len's. i'll decide later. i have alot of alone time now since lenny's asleep.

my poor love is sick. nose blocked, sore throat, lymph nodes on right side swollen and her left ones are semi swollen and she's running a fever too. sigh my poor baby. tmr she's heading over to the docs so maybe i'll head down.

kinda looking forward to the 1 month attachments starting next week. excited yet dreading it but i know it'll pass real fast since we're back in the ward system. means back to routine! something im comfortable with but not too happy about. i feel useful but with the cloud of 'student nurse' looming over me, i feel kinda mentally challenged too. ah well nothing new.

next week the dread comes from something else. something personal that i dont wanna talk about. we're prepared, i am too. i just worry for u love. just be safe. i love you.

2009-09-20T18:57:00.002+08:00

THE FULL HANNAH BILILIE POST!!

[why? CUZ SHE'S HOT!!]

2009-09-20T17:27:00.004+08:00

this blog of mine has been collecting cobwebs and dust bunnies. but no one cares. including myself.

mayb its time i get a new blog eh?

or a new blog skin. or make one. or proscrastinate getting or making one.

ah well whatever. i dont give a flying fucktard's ass

alright its september, the last academic year of your lives in NYP is over. long gone poof! out the window.

attachements have commenced and i want to cry.

nothing new. same old same old.

ED and OT at AH were fun. well OT had the dread of inhaling the fumes of the diathermy machine.

i like the describe it as Eau de burning hair and tar. exquisite.

ED was fun, i kinda knew that 2 certain someones would fall deeply in love but never would i have expected both to acctually get together.

anyway, what ever it is. good luck to u both.

so last week, met this crappy ass girlie names squid. i call her sotong but whatever, no one cares.

we've been hanging out alot lately with gek and i am proud to say that now i have my 4 pillars of strength. no longer 5 cuz..well...i dont think that 5th one fits the bill.

this week, monday and tuesday is with lenny, wednesday is with squid and sab maybe grace too, thurs and friday im free...ANY TAKERS?!?!

OH OH!!! OMG IM OBSESSED WITH HANNAH BILILIE FROM GOSSIP!!! SHE'S SO FUCKING HOT!!!

there are so many things i wish i could tell u guys here. but there are many spies.

just know that i love you, i wish you were mine. i really do miss u.

OKAY PICTURE TIME!! cuz my blog is boring as we all know it..

collage i did with shutterfly: 3 of my 4 pillars..

this was out with gek and squid on 14thsept,slacking at one fullerton:

one of squid's monsters, doesnt gek look like it?? XD:

this is where i flip out and say: OMF!! I LOOK LIKE A GUY!! A FUCKING EMO DUDE IF MY HAIR WAS SHORTER AND I DIDNT HAVE BOOBS!!:

squid miester with her own creation:

part of the mess on squid's table when i crashed there cuz i didnt wanna go home:

2009-08-05T08:39:00.002+08:00

alright so.I FINALLY PASSED MY LAB TEST!! about time..

its week 16....1 week more to exams..1 week closer to working...1 week closer to being unable to call myself a student and to hang out with my schoolmates.

ya know how much that sucks?!? knowing all these? ARGH!
im gonna miss all the nonsense classes and bitching with all my crazy friends. i am acctually gonna miss doing projects. ANYTHING beats working.

today's my last presentation. my FYP. how nice. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!
im typing this at 8.45am. lab class was cancelled yesterday and today cuz ms sek is on MC. its weird cuz ms gwen was on MC for 2 days too...coincidence no?
k so yes. im tired. im hungry and i slept for 3 hours therefore i sound like i am stranded in the desert..the desperation in my voice for someone to take me away from my suffering!! argh!!

stayed up till 1 to wake lenny up only to find her awake and going back to sleep cuz her mum and bro were damn noisy [like watching the tv as if they were deaf, answering the phone only to shout as they reply their friend or whoever and screaming at lenny to do this and that. turn down the volume for crying out loud!!] and then cino was being his cute irritating self and mew-ing VERY VERY LOUDLY at her to wake up and manja him. so she slept at 3 or so i think.
yup yup. anyway. yeah..meow.

oh i forgot to mention..i got fined at yishun for throwing a cig butt on the floor. let me tell u what happened.
i 'ran' to yishun bus interchange to chase after lenny. we had a small fight again but its alright now. so tried to calm her down and everything and we were fagging. i noticed 2 ppl staring at our direction. i brushed it off thinking that its alright cuz i mean dude! we're 2 chicks hugging and kissing..who wouldnt stare? i was crying and then she decided to light up and so i lit up and then decided to flick the butt into the bushes nearby. then we talked,fagged again and cooled down before heading to the bus to her place. then i got booked. if u ask me..could they BE any more inconsiderate. dude im CRYING/CRIED!! why must u book someone huh? wtf! k fine u wanna book me...how bout u let me pick it up? give me a warning u bloody fucktards~~ fucking bastard children..so i gotta pay 300 bucks and if they send me a letter..i swear i will flip cuz they said they wouldnt!!

sigh..alright so back to module evaluationing and prep for presentation. whee! gah.

2009-07-20T21:42:00.004+08:00

week 14..crazy.

monday and the past week's been wonderful. spending time with lenny and mama and lenny's family. dont get me wrong, i miss my family alot. i really really do but when wednesday night comes, im gonna my new family. going home with lenny everyday, sleeping with her and waking to find her by my side, pondering where cino baby is and which can of wet food can i give him today. home away from home. i love them all.

school's only enjoyable with my friends around me, lenny by my side.
i love you lenny baby. i truly do.
both you and our son are the most important people to me.
how am i going to adjust to a life spent away from you...its gonna be hard but it has to be done. in time only, in time.

had to pause for awhile to stop cino baby from biting my laptop charger wire..this boy is obsessed with string or anything that looks like it. so i gave him my rubber band, something to keep this boy entertained. he wanted company so i gave it to him. watching him, sigh. i dont want wednesday night to come. but it has to.

theory tests, practical test, icas. all part and parcel of our life in poly. sometimes we lose track of what we do and why we do it. sometimes i forget why i love someone or why i miss them. to me..i just do. however, just 1 event is enough to remind me why i did and still do.

i miss my sister. 12th july is the day my entire family packed up to aus to settle her down. i cried an hour before we had to set off to the airport. it dawned onto me that i was gonna be alone without my sister for 4 months. the family wasnt complete at home. i cried again when i had to go off to lenny's, leaving everyone there. it was horrifying. dreadful. sure i fought with my sister but being siblings is all about love and hate combined. thats what makes us human.

i love u my lumpy sister. i miss you!!

2009-07-09T21:38:00.002+08:00

so its week 12. the week after our long long 3 week holidays.

life is waaaaaaaaaaaay too hectic.
every minute has something new
im too tired man. so tired. [eyes are half closed as i type this out]
and it doesnt help that mum's got the bout of community acquired pneumonia. its mild..from the atypical bacteria, mycoplasma pneumonea. im alright.
no s/s of cap so far. so im good
but i dont think for long cuz everyone aorund me is falling sick. that and sis is flying off this friday.
still cant believe it. im gonna miss her.

sigh. oh well she'll be back in 4 months time. k i need to print my nursing project report. that was the main purpose of me coming online. forever losing my objective.

alright....TO BED!!! SOON!!! AFTER I PRINT THE STUPID THING AND COVER MYSELF WITH MEDICATED PLASTERS!! im 19 but i have the body of a 60 year old. gosh..

TO THE PRINTER!!

2009-06-30T21:15:00.002+08:00

so in response to belle's lil shoutout..
yes i dunno how to update my blog. XD. bite me.

so update...

school's routine 2 week recess was extended by another week due to 1 confirmed case of H1N1. whee and thank u lord for hearing my prayer!!

last week we had our class bbq at my place. omg it was so damn fun!! wish we could do it again!! my classmates are crappy has hell..but i love them still!! ahaha!! whoohoo!!
it sucks that its only on the final semester of every graduating year that people slowly start to mingle and find that they really enjoy the company of their classmates. next year, all of us wont be this close. there wont be any time. time really is the essence. but life goes on. that was june 24th. and that was the day i found a squashed cockroach in my washing machine. yuck.

june 25th 2009. the king of pop dies. micheal jackson died at the age of 50. god bless his soul.
i remember being 3 and picking up the newspaper, a weak attempt to mimic my grandpa, looking at the headlines that screamed out 'Jackson marries Presley'. i remember listening and dancing to his songs and i vaguely remember today parts of his various videos. waking up on that faithful thursday, i didnt even know that he had left us. mum always leaves the news on in the morning and i was way too lazy to change the channel. i glanced up casually, not really giving a damn about the news, only caring about the latest H1N1 count in singapore. and there at the bottom of the screen it read: 'LATEST: MICHEAL JACKSON DIES AT 50 OF POSSIBLE CARDIAC ARREST.'

there was a moment of silence..
nothing registered..
shock..
is this for real?
yes it is honey. it is. and boy does it stink.
R.I.P MJ..the world salutes you.

peopl call him wacko and yes he does look hideous but...thats cuz when society raises you up and gives you fame, they can destroy you as easily. to me, he became what he was because of that. a perfectionist thrust with stellar expectations no man could achieve. what can you do?

mtv now airs his videos, tributes are on the way. but they never last long. give it a week or 2 and it'll blow over. the legend will die down and everyone will go back to 'oh MJ the crazy dead guy'. oh well. he'll live in our heart. thats all that matters.

-when you're bored, you dont call,
i dont know cuz you didnt wanna talk much.
all of a sudden u msg me
telling me as if its totally acceptable,
that you're gonna hangout with her.
how do you EXPECT me to react?
take it lying down? hell no.
i get upset, u get angry.
what?
so we cool down and u decided not to go.
i ask you why?
u said she asked u out cuz she just got back from m'sia
besides u were bored so u said yes.
but when i check ur phone honey,
YOU asked HER out.
YOU msged HER if SHE was busy.
SHE msgs back saying :
'having early dinner now. what you wanna do my dear? :)'
and u tell her u wanna hang out and she says she'll come down and pick you up.
liar...but i hold it in..till now..im still holding it in.-

many times i asked u after i saw the msg but u still tell me ur lies.
how could you.
how do you expect me to react?
yes im shaken, wouldnt you? after u almost tried to return me your ring right smack in the middle of ikea after we watched transformers with ur mum. we fought cuz why? cuz i thought ur mum wanted an ice cream cone and u got pissed cuz u had ice cream all over ur hands and they were sticky.

still i love you.
is this what u call emotional abuse?

2009-05-24T18:58:00.002+08:00

friday was STAYOVER AT LENNY'S PLACE DAY!!!!
omg it was so so so so so fun!!! taking care of cino and just spending time with her. today we hung out at plaza, were suppose to go to haz's sisters' wedding but we decided to spend more time and thenat the end of the day we fough and i almost lost her. she wanted to break up. but the matter is resolved

only problem is.....
i doubt...
everything now.
mainly cuz of the fear.
one min we're laughin and the next she wants out, outta the relationship, outta my life.

i question my worth.

to everyone i know...
i question...

every situation and every person i feel familiar and secure with.

what is my worth...

2009-05-09T01:03:00.002+08:00

TGIF!! THANK U!!!! OMG!! YESSSSSSSSS!!!!

the awesomeness i feel. THE JOY! but it wont last long, as usual.
next week, 2 lab assessments and one will be taken by sek. omg i hate her. gowning and gloving by her and the 2nd set of skills will be done by another lecturer.

1st assesment is on monday morning and the 2nd is on friday morning. omg!! how fun!! a wonderful way to spend the week. yay!! gah.

god im extremely tired. like i ran a marathon and then had to do a triathalon. things have been moving a little too fast, assignments piling up and the moment ur done with one, another needs to be completed. the result of squashing a year's worth of studies into half a year= multiple major burn outs than causes everyone to really ponder 'can i really get into uni???'. if it aint applicable to you, it is to me.

sigh,lenny's been obscessed with her psp patapon game and its kinda irritating me a lil but im controlling. she'll ask me many times if she can play it when she has had the psp for the whole day and when she does....we cant talk at night even though we say we will cuz she's too engrossed in the game. i just wanns spend more time with her, yes we see each other everyday and today i went over to her place..but

i just miss hearing her voice as i slowly drift to sleep. see why now i cant sleep everybody? hah. oh well..k update another time when i have it..if i ever have time. hmmm

2009-04-27T19:15:00.002+08:00

REVIEW!!

1st week of school. lets see.

HECTIC!

squish a whole year's worth of work, knowledge and credits into 6 MONTHS!! I END MY FINAL ACADEMIC SEMESTER IN MID-AUGUST DAMMIT!!! ARGH!! FUCK!! the pain and the STRESS!!

minus the fact that i gotta carry those stupid books to AND from school. oh how much it aggrivates my already bad back and my 'i'm 19 but my body screams im 50' stature. dont u love school? how fun. but it does beat working so. gah.

hmm so monday the 27th of april. i dont like this day. not one bit because tmr is my grandpa's death anniversary. 5 years

still plays out so vividly in my mind. every single detail.

today a moth landed on my bed. i saw it when i was walking outta the shower and into my room. bright and early. it was huge.yes i freaked out because it was 1. HUGE!! and 2. i hate flying insects!! and then there's 3. moths represent the soul of your past relatives. [to my family this applies]

fear then sorrow gripped my heart. kong kong,u came to remind me?
i remember. dont worry.how can i ever forget?

i just wish u were here to see how the peranakan culture has progressed. how the museum looks like. i have so many questions i want to ask on our family tree. how everyone i know is related to each other. what are the daily things i take for granted really very much dipped into our rich hearitage. how i wish u could teach me how to speak baba malay and that i wont have to resort to learning it from some other baba's book.

i just wish you didnt have to go so soon. i barely knew you kong kong. and i miss your presence in our household.

sigh. tmr i'll be in morning colours. i just want to look the part and not feel it. the sorrow and remorse. i hope tmr will be alright if not i'll..break down.

2009-04-18T20:57:00.002+08:00

more quizzes cuz im bored. but quick update. today lenny and i met up, went to funan to get her ipod then to harbourfront to get stuff from diaso. i had tonsa fun with her, the joy, immense. i love her so much. I LOVE U BABY!!!

k
QUIZ TIME!!

1. What color is your toothbrush?
-the red one's at the sink and the white one's in the shower. easier in the morning, dont need to go 'oh shit toothbrush' and hobble outta the shower to grab it ahah.

2. Name one person that made you smile today?
-LENNY!! HEEEE and my beloved mama. she's so so funny!!

3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
-slapping the snooze button on my alarm clock

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
-finishing dinner at mama's house.

5. What is your favorite candy?
-chocolate mints. none in particular.

6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
-nope but i wanna go. curiousity.

7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
-fucking cheebai la! not fair!! [to this dude we saw at gramaphone near peninsular plaza because he had 'MEGADETH' and 'SLAYER' on the outer aspect of both his arms]

8. What is the best ice cream flavor?
-BEN AND JERRY'S COOKIE DOUGH!!!! -drools-

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
-water. nothing beats water.hits the spot everytime.

10. What is the longest you have gone without sleeping?
-3 days during exams. 3 words. hell.on.earth.

11. Have you ever made a promise you'd die to keep?
-yes, never to ever ever ever lose lenny again.

12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
-a pair of grey shorts from cotton on. its comfy AND on sale so whoohoo

13. The last sporting event you watched?
-some dude ramming into a sand hill after he went into midair, didnt crank on the gas enough while he was gaining speed on his dirtbike.

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
-sweet caramel..yuuuum

15. Who is the last person you sent a message on facebook?
-winnie!! XD

16. Ever gone camping?
-in secondary school. once a year. time of my life. NOT!

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
-no even though im suppose to. key word here: SUPPOSE. doesnt mean it's gonna happen.

18. Do you have a pet?
-cino baby!!! my fluffy hairball of a persian kitty!! but he's with my baba, ive got 2 goldfish at home. whee-ee-ee-ee-ee. how.fun.yay.yay.yay.me.

19. Do you have a tan?
-nope, cant and dont wanna.

20. Do you like Chinese food over pizza?
-erm...too much of either makes the other option more tantalizing.so it really depends on the situation.

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
-nope..waaaaaaaaaaay too gassy. hate burping and especially when it goes up your nose. OW!!

22. What did your last text message say?
-fever... by lenny..she's not feeling well now. im worried about her.

23. What u doing tomorrow?
-slack at home while i can before school start the day after. pouts.

24. Where is your dad?
-beside me on the sofa in the hall wathing tv.

25. Look to your left, what do you see?
-my handphone and my tall glass of water.

26. What color is your watch?
-white,black and yellow. star wars lego watch. YESSSSS STAR WARS!!

27. What do you think of when you hear Australia?
- la trobe university, my parents and sister going over to help her settle in, the house to myself ahahahah.

28. What is your birthstone?
-pearl.

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
-head in. dont have a car. cant drive thru.

30. What is your favorite number?
-5

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
-lenny baby.

32. Any plans today?
-i need a shower and im gonna listen to more ac/dc and hopefully contact lenny to see how she's doing

33. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
-being totally broke. not a single cent.

34. Last song listened to?
-back in black by ac/dc

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
-with alot of contemplation and pauses.

36. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
-nope. im the maid.

37. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
-my converse chucks that baby baba gave to me.

38. Are you jealous of anyone?
-nope. im happy the way i am and what i have.

39. Is anyone jealous of you?
-i would know this how?!?

40. Do you love anyone?
-LENNY!! and cino baby boy. hee

41. Do any of your friends have children?
-yup my classmate, married with one child. heee.

42. What do you usually do during the day?
-wake up, get ready,go out and then head home at night.

43. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
-nope.

44. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
-yup..answering the phone,being a sarcastic bitch by going 'HELLO?!? HERE LA!!'

45. What color is your car?
-I dont have a car BUT dad's car is grey.

46. Do you like cats?
-duh..my baby cino's a cat. a persian. a cute lil persian kitty cat.

47. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
-nope..

48. How did you get your worst scar?
-fell down on my knee once too many times on the exact same spot during my primary days in IJ kellock.

49. Last cigarette?
-erm....5.20pm with lenny before we had to head back home [lenny] and church [me].

50. Last CD played?
-incubus a crow left of the murder.

51. last BUBBLE bath?
-YEARS AGO!!

52. last time you cried?
-thursday when lenny and i reconciled and got back together.

53. last meal?
-the weekly saturday dinner at mama's house. good food all the time.

54. have you ever dated someone twice?
-erm...lenny? when we were trying out to get together. ahah does that count?

55. have you ever kissed someone & regretted it?
-erm....my ex-es yes.

56. have you ever fallen in love?
-i AM in love. but to answer ur question,yes i have

57. You ever lost someone?
-a friend and my grandpa.

58. have you ever slept until 1pm?:
-yes and i felt soooooooo guilty!!

59. Have you ever been drunk and threw up?
-nope. its difficult for me to get drunk.

60. list 3 people you can tell pretty much anything to –
-lenny,grace and razin but there's also brenda,winnie,roshini and beatrice.

61. list THREE favorite colors/shades —
- crimson red,black and royal purple.

62. Laughed until you cried:
-not in a long time but yesi have before ahaha.

63. Went behind your parents back:
-erm yes, more often that u know.

64. Your last kiss:
-erm 5.45pm in the train with lenny when she has to go off at outram.

65. Gay Marriage?
-a fantasy that will become reality.

66. Lowering the drinking age?
-hell no! the world's fucked up enough with the cigs and the alcohol and the min 18 years old to buy stocks, we dont need to bring MORE ppl into this hell hole!!

67. Who are the best huggers that you know?
-STC GIRLS!!! WE GOTS DA LOOOOOOVE!!! but there are the exceptions like my baba,belle,sab,yana,hazimah yup yup.

68. Do you believe in love at first sight?
-nope. i might find them hot but i like them more if they've got a good personality and character.

69. Is there something you want to tell someone?
-LENNY I LOVE U BABY!! TAKE CARE OF URSELF!!! RAZIN!! DONT STRESS LA!! TAKE IT EASY, LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO WALLOW IN SUFFERING 24/7!!

70. What brand of shirt are you wearing?
-threadless t-s

71. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
-erm...maybe ahaha. i would to lenny[duh] and grace cuz they like ma hommiez yooo.

72. How many kids do you want to have?
-i want 2 but i'll be adopting.

73. Do you want to change your name?
-hell no!! i love my name. unique. and i love the meaning AND the history behind it.

74. Last time you saw your father?
-5 seconds ago when he went into his room.

75. What time did you wake up today?
-8am started slamming the alarm but fully woke up at 9. had to go for 10am novena.

76. how old are you?
-18 years 10 months and 11 days.

77. What were you doing at midnight last night:
-talking to lenny online

78. What is your favorite thing in your room?
-my bed and lenny if she was there ahaha

79. Where is your best friend right now?
-at home and online.

80. Anything else to say?
-OMG LOW BATT!! CHARGE LAPPIE!! GO GO GO GO!!!

2009-04-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

im envious of angus young's legs.

random but true. im on an acdc high again honeys!! YES IM BACK IN BLAAAAAAAAACK!!! AWWWW YEAH!!! bon scott, ur mates wrote that for u. it's awesome shit!!!

k so anw..update..lenny and i broke up initally..in the earlier part of last week but we got back again yesterday. YAY ME!! it was one stupid mistake made and her drama plus mine too that caused her to ignore me for a week, go out with 5 chicks that like her and for me..to go out with razin. btu im glad we're back together now. yay!! couple rings here we come.

school starts on monday and i know...everyone out there is groaning and moaning about that. look at it this was, 6 months of school, 6 months of attachments and then we're out into the world to work. so why moan and groan now? schooling is fun, beats work dont u think? so it may be stressful,thats life? work hard,play hard. dont forget to relax aite sweethearts?

see what me being alone does to me? makes me think. good but bad. i'd elaborate but im tired and awaiting lenny to call me. oh she's online!! heee. gonna meet her tmr. so many days without makes me want her around me every second of everyday.

I LOVE U LENNY!!!

me bored. shall steal quizzes from rosh's blog

Starting time: 1.20am

Name: cass

Sisters: 1

Brothers: none

Eye color: deep dark brown

Shoe size: 39 a.k.a 9

Hair: long black and wavey

Piercings:2, one on each ear

Height: 156cm..yes yes short..whats new

What are you wearing right now?: grey sweater and blue fbts

Where do you live? tiong bahru.

Favorite number: 5

Favorite drink: water.cold water and....water.

Favorite month: JUNE!!! MY BIRTHDAY!! and december too!!

Favorite breakfast: eggs..they make me happy

————————Have You Ever————————

Broken a bone: nope

Been in a police car: nope

Been on a plane: yup when i was a weeeee child

Been in a hot tub: yup...at my friend's palce

Swam in the ocean: yup when i was a kid.

Fallen asleep in school: i can count how many times i havent!

Cried when someone died?: yes..grandpa's. cried till i could cry anymore,went emotionless.

Fell off your chair: yup...some wise guy in school thought it'd be fun if she pulls the chair away while i was trying to sit back down. asshole!!

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yup...waiting lenny to pick up or call back when she was ignoring me.

Saved e-mails: yessssssssssh

Been cheated on: this needs to be specific. so i shall give u vague answer, it really depends.

————————What is————————

Your room like: controlled mess.kinda like me and my hair bwahahahah.

Right beside you: handphone and my huge tall cup of water.

The last thing you ate: nasi lemak andi bought for the family [andi's lenny's bro]

———————Ever Had————————

Chicken pox: yup when i was a dumpling. a baby. a neonate. a lump of fat and organs and skin..

Sore throat: frequent enough for me to know it's URTI again..smoker so spare me.

Stitches: erm...they stitched the back of my gums when i went for wisdom tooth extraction, the tooth wasnt out but it had an abnormal orientation so took it out as a precautionary measure. it was 3 on the left and 4 on the right. both lower jaw. the upper ones dont need to be removed. yay!!

Broken nose: nope

————————Do You————————

Believe in love at first sight: partially. i believe anything can happen. i fall in love with someone solely based on their character and personality, looks are secondary.

Like picnics: erm not really cuz i hate the weather. but it can be fun with the right ppl.

Wear contact lenses or glasses: kuudoos to both.

————————Who————————

Was the last person you danced with? lenny..dirty dancing ahaha.

Last made you smile? lenny!!and cino! my 2 babies.

Did you last yell at? erm..lenny..teasing her about the 5 girls.

————————Final Questions————————

What are you listening to right now? AC/DC's back in black.

What did you do today?: went over to lenny's.hang out and enjoy each other's company.

Hate someone in your family?: auntie diana. eck.i'd explain but this post will be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too long.

Diamond or pearl?: diamonds. sparkley..im kinda like a magpie..likes sparkley stuff

Are you the oldest?: nope.. im the anak anak in the family. the youngest.

Indoors or outdoors?: indoors with the air con on and with my baba.

————————Today did you————————

Talk to someone you like?: erm..i think the real question is, did u talk to someone u DONT like today.

Kiss anyone? LENNY!! AND CINO!!!

Get sick?: URTI for 2 weeks now.getting better so hmmm.

Sing?: when do i never?

Talk to an ex?: noooooooooope. dont keep in contact with any of them bastards

Miss someone? LENNY when i had to go back.

Eat? no no im anorexic and rather die from starvation in an attempt to look beautiful in a very warped way. YES I ATE U DUCHBAG!!

————————Last person who————————

You talked to on the phone?: lenny baby baba.

Made you cry?: lenny when we reconciled and got back together.

Went to the movies with?: razin..fast and furious.

You went to the mall with?: lenny!!

————————Have you————————

Been to Mexico?: nope

Been to USA?: SAN FRAN!!! I LOVE U!!! so the answer is yes i have been to the US

————————Random————————

Do you have a crush on someone?: now no, then yes but like i said now no.

What books are you reading right now?: not reading any. yes thats how sad my reading-life is.

Best feeling in the world?: being with your baby and the ones u love.

Future kids names?: erm..i'llbe adopting, but i like the name caleb and helena. heee

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: not with but they are nearby. dont wanna get rid of them. im 19 and i have stuff toys, sue me.

What’s under your bed?: my sister's bed. double decker.

Favorite sport(s) to watch? badminton, syncronized swimming, gymnastics, crowd surfing, mosh pits, live metal old school concerts, shopping [its a sport and i dont care what u think. u need to plan, strategize, manage ur cash and think where's the best deals and the cheapest things. its a sport, physical and mentally challenging]

Favorite place: anywhere with lenny.

Who do you really hate? hmm too happy to think of ppl i hate.

Do you have a job?: student nurse. soon to be staff nurse. OMG NO!!!

What time is it now? 1.56am...alot of distractions and fingers are frozen from being directly under the blast of the aircon.

alright GOOD NIGHT SINGAPORE!! -guitar solo-...YEAH!! \m/ \m/

2009-04-07T18:37:00.002+08:00

okay so here's the update

during the hols after exams, we brought cino to the vet to get his teeth done and this rotten tooth removed. the vet we got was so much better than the one we first had when we brought cino. it took a LOAD off our shoulders. after the surgery was done, we brought him back so he could rest. nothing but worry on our minds but we fed him his food and we gave him is antibiotics. a week's worth of manja-ing him paid off, he's not in the pink of health. he runs around more when u play with him, he mews more and he eats more. he's such a baby!! i love him dearly, we both do.

exam results came out a month back on the 1st week of the surgical attachments. GPA went up so THANK GOD!!! my efforts paid off. those many sleepless night. WHOOHOO!!

attachments were a fucking disaster. the sister and CI were fuckers. it didnt help that i was working with a prev AN from that same ward. favouritism came into play but had to persevere on for the 3 weeks. i brought it up to the CI who didnt help much but she kinda did by placing me with other ppl so i can work better with them. i dont care man i was like 'get through these 3 weeks and get the FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!' so i lived day to day..dreading work but glad that i was able to suffer 8 hours each day with the rest cuz we all agreed, this attachment is the worse. 1st day and we get slaughtered by sister manjit when we havent even done anything..god. that shows u how fucked up this one is. but i made friends with 2 year 1s, hazimah who's my age, and razin who's a year younger. ahah we suffered together. hazimah's damn fun to hang out with and razin's like...my clone..freaky how we talk alike and shit. same words, same pace, same mind set. its like talking to myself so its really easy. we slacked at harbourfront and just talked..like a get to know each other better session. paid off. we're close ahahah. if i hadnt met them and worked with them and the other yr2s, i think i wouldve gone over the edge already man...

k so now's the hols. im so fucking happy that dreadful period is over. alot of shit has happened but it's alright. lenny and i are close as hell ahaha..its nice hanging out with her. just being around her.

friday's good friday and my old cathechism classmates are planning a reunion. hell yeah im going ahahah. i met claudia at AH, she was visiting her relative and he was in the cubicle next to mine. it was so nice to see her again. she lost ALOT of weight. so im wondering how the rest will look like. its not a surprise that everyone thinks its crazy i went into nursing..ahah but they'll get over it in time ahaha. looking forward to seeing the gang again.

maybe this good friday'll be a good one. i'd elaborate but im too lazy. its a religious thing ahah. but im acctually looking forward to good friday and easter sunday...CATS the musical on sunday night. WHOOHOO~~ i can wear my aldo shoes!! yes!!! now to get new clothes in time..

what?

i havent updated my wardrobe in more than 6 months.

so sue me..

2009-03-06T16:36:00.002+08:00

yesterady was our 4th month. each month we get closer and closer. the day was great. went over to her place and then we went to watch watchmen [its nothing great so i highly advise everyone against watching it] then we headed down to lenny's mum's workplace to join her for dinner

she was working late so she asked us to join her for dinner so alright then. walked from downtown east to her workplace which isnt very far.rather near. then after we ate it was off to lenny's place.

thats where all hell broke loose. bad bad bad bad bad manstrual cramps. the kind that makes ur whole body feel like mush. the crippling kinda pain. baba took care of me. it was so sweet of her. thank u baby. i muv u. hee. she gave me warm coffee and ponstan and then tucked me in for an hour's worth of rest.

today she came over. lepak day la. went to the docs for some meds since panadol was really terrible and not exactly working. as it should. but in the end i got panadol and buscopan. well. atleast something else la. either one of them is making me really sleepy
either that or im just loosing too much blood or something. very lethargic the whole day.

could be the weather too.too hot to be comfortable. lethergy. gah hate it.

attachments start a week from now. im KINDA looking forward to it. something to do and the last time to be a year 2 student. oh god i cant believe im moving into year 3. oh gosh. year 3. daunting. more pressure.

T- 2 weeks till exams results are released.

2009-02-22T16:52:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER! FINALLY!
the past week was hell! but i had lenny to push me on.
many sleepless nights, had to spend 2 days at her place. no sleep just studying. it was crazy shit.

adult nursing was the last paper and i think many didnt sleep. everyone came to school with the 'oh my fuck lets get this over with so i can sleep already!' face. of course had to tease lenny with her atachment stalker but it wasnt as bad as anwar's. that was funny!

post paper plans? back to lenny's for some well deserved sleep. that was until the coffee kicked in and my brain went into coffee buzz. brain EXCITED body zzzzzz. so watched love guru while baby was over at the com with her e-books. then at 3pm we slept but not without a dose of piriton each! yay! our wakey wakey time at 6pm was postponed to 9.30pm when lenny woke up and shook the life out of me. so rush rush rush outta the house and arranged to meet the next day.

so yesterday, went over to her place. we were suppose to go out cuz of the 2009 reasons promotion by singapore tourism board but shit happened and we followed her mum to her company's business bungalow. helped her set up and then we headed down to the beach. we went picking for seashells cuz it was low tide. it was so nice. the sun and the wind,being with her. and we were both in white so i passed the comment that it was as if we were in a commercial for phuket. the image kinda went down the drain when we pulled out the fags.

it was so nice to just spend time with her. we talked. we laughed. we joked with each other. just being so close to each other. it was magical.

we intend to spend the next 3 weeks with each other before year 3 gets hectic.
i wuv u lenny!! heee

2009-01-17T22:00:00.003+08:00

okay so this is like the update post ya?

k lets back track to december. i got back on the 20th of dec but i lied to lenny saying i'd be back on the 21st and she believed so thats very very good. i got back on the 20th of dec 3 am and i msgeed her mum asking if i could head down and surprise her cuz she didnt know i was back already. of course i didnt ask her at that inhuman time!! people need to sleep!!

so she said yes and i headed down to her place around 5 [auntie told me that they were heading to ikea and would be back by then] i took a cab down and got there 15mins earlier and staked out at the playground keeping in sight the front door. i creeped over around 5.05pm and hid just then i heard voices and i peered around the corner to find lenny and her mummy returning from ikea!! so i hid under lenny's bedroom window hoping that she'll open her window and then TADAH!! HERE I AM!!! but no no she didnt. instead i waited in the sun and wondered why the hell was the gate opening and closing for the 2nd time. i though, dammit dont tell me she's smoking?!? low and behold, there she was sitting on the bench infront of her house lighting up. so i sauntered over and made my presence know with a little 'ahem'. her reaction. perfect. shock to joy. it was the best thing ever!! ahaha

i love my lenny baby so so much. anyway, after so much our relationship was on the rocks during open house. the long hours and my stupid hormones. we almost broke up. i had many sleepless night. waking up crying cuz i was so scared of loosing her. she means everything to me. more than anyone has. it was terrifying, the thought of loosing her. but things are back to the way it is now. i learnt to be selfless and not blame everything whenever something goes wrong. i love her so much.

I LOVE YOU BABY BABA!!

so today is chinese new year 2nd day., XING NIAN KUAI LE!! hanyu ping ying all gone. but nevermind.

yesterday was off to visit the kweks. like what we have always been doing for the many many years. so first stop. mama's house. all of us were in sarong kebayas. duh. we are peranakans!! and im a damn proud nonya and NO i didnt need some show to reinforce my pride for my tradition and culture. unlike my mum and sis. gah. I brought them shopping for kebayas, I brought them to buy kasut manik but do I get any credit? nope. whatever la. i give up. [thank u baby for bringing me to arab street and looking through the many many shops under the hot sun. i love u.]

so then after mama's house [all the women were in sarong kebayas, we bought a batik shirt for my dad. baba kwek!! ahaha] headed over to church where we were gawked at. duh! we were so frickin colourful!! i felt like a peacock. look at me!! my glooooooooooooriousness!! my beauuuuuuuuuty!! but yeah had to get over myself. so after mass it was off to auntie noni's. normally we'd go to auntie diana but she's off on some cruise to god knows where la. at her place. u want to makan u only eat at the kitchen. u want snacks? use a paper plate. her eyes follow u wherever u go. its so unpleasent going there. even mama hates going there. so yay! no auntie diana's. i love auntie noni's. u go there and its FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD!! food is abundant and she just shovels food onto your plate. like my grandma. its genuine hospitality. the old talk to the young with so much joy. its not about how u stand in the world there. their main concern? are u having fun and are u enjoying life. like how my mama is la. so peranakan. so just one house yesterday. as the years pass, the number of houses also decrease. i guess its just the way it is.

today? off to my mum's eldest brother's place. my tua gu. and i dont and have never liked going to my mum's side. the food also not that good. down there we pakay kebaya then everyone say: oh the little nonyas. must be watch the show then wear one right?

in my mind im like. u say that again? im a peranakan girl. a nonya. i knew my root long before that stupid show came about. dont be irritating. dont talk to me like im stupid ah. i know whats what.

try explaining to them the meaning behind each piece they tak faham but they talk damn big.as if they know everything! irritating. i didnt enjoy myself there. the noodles made by my tua gu which i used to love we bleh. nothing.

the food my mama cooked during reunion dinner were outta this world. excellent. her ayam buah keluak, he pio soup and chinese new year yellow noodles. yum yum!! her pineapple tarts and kueh bangkit. omg DELISH!! my mama is the best cook ever.

i love my grandma so so much. sometimes i wish i could stay with her. to be close to her. i envy the helper. she's closer to mama than i am. but still i love her so so much.

i love my peranakan family. it is so wonderful seeing my grandma in her kebaya. the matriach stole the day no matter what anyone says.

oh my pics are on facebook but i will post her another day too.

2008-12-12T09:14:00.003+08:00

tomorrow i fly off to hokkaido. i'll be back on the 19th of dec.

excited and sad at the same time.
dont wanna go cuz im gonna be away from lenny. excited cuz i'll finally be able to see FALLING snow and not FALLEN snow.

that and i like the cold too. singapore's wayyyyyyy too hot.

im over at lenny's place now, came over early to spend more time with her. not gonna see her and hear from her in a week. rather unbearable since we see each other everyday and talk ever night.

im gonna miss her. and our son cino..that fat lil blob of white fur. he's very hyper today,he kept running around when i was playing with him. so adorable.

meow..i dont wanna go..i love you lenny love. see you guys soon!!

2008-12-04T21:14:00.002+08:00

alright i try and make this snappy and i'll fill in the details some other time.

tmr's my retest AND stats test. i wanna thank lenny,rizal,belle and yana,fatin,sab oh and mabel for teaching me at such short notice and being so patient with me while i asked question after question for everything regarding that dreaded subject.

i feel confident now for my stats test. but i worried for my retest. i'll be getting susan leong who hates my guts and called me arrogant and overconfident [will elaborate later] OR jenny chew who is my lab skills teacher and hates all those who failed their skills.

i need to pass and i can rmb everything i studied but when im there with the people who make me feel so small i wanna just run and i cant rmb fuck. gotta dress up nice to appease those 2 bitches.

i need to pass. i hope i get catheterization again or NGT insertion and aspiration. PLEASE!!! i need to pass..i dont wanna retake this module and graduate 6 months after. i wanna graduate with my friends. i want to leave NYP...its fucked up the way the nursing lab skills are carried out, thank goodness Ms Ng Thai Lee told me i was chosen to go to this compulsory meeting with the director for some monthly meet and greet kinda session. its about time. i think i speak for the majority that we'vehad enough of all this nonsence. i love NYP dont get me wrong but i hate the way the nursing skills are being run this semester. its crazy fuck!.

anw i gtg read through my stats and nusing lab notes.

will update later on during the weekend.

goodnight sweethearts.

2008-11-25T11:52:00.002+08:00

i realize i start/ wish to start majority of my posts with 'skipped...lecture today'. but hmm nvm

me went for bio. very tempted not to go for it though cuz my card was with mabel but had to haul myself outta bed. 58kg of dead weight. yes NOW you know my weight sweethearts. soon it'll be gone, i hope

but thats not the reason why im blogging. i need to update all you sweethearts that read my dear blog. well..

i stayed over at lenny's place on friday night and then headed over to the peranakan museum on saturday!!! THE EXCITEMENT!!! you can ask her how badly i reacted. i was this maniacal [dont comment..rawr] little nonya screaming silently and squealling about at every gallery we went into. but seriously...WOAH!!! it was aweeesome!!

gotta bring mama there sometime. its a pity kong kong cant see it too. but oh well. after the peranakan museum we headed over to arab street to find my kebaya.

oh. my. goodness.
kebaya at $80?!?! I WANT!!!! and they had it in red AND white. k i know what you guys are thinking but no. im not THAT patriotic. then again....am i ever?
the more we walked the more we saw and the more we saw, the more i wanted it all!!

put a kebaya deprived nonya in arab street and this is what happens k?

we went into this store that is called 'the house of keris' and inside was the most prettiest, most affordable kerosang ive ever laid eyes on. it looked just like the one we saw at the peranakan museum. it was smaller but still beautiful and going at a price of..drumroll please..$40!! cheap as fuck!! me wants...but nvm no money therefore thou shant talk. told mummy so now im awaiting her verdict.

after arab street and a feat at pastamania, we headed down to lenny's granpa's place. i was telling her on the way there,'maybe you're peranakan.' she doubted that and said she'd cry if that became a reality and guess what. SHE IS!!! though an inkling only but still, eurasian peranakan!!! WHOOOHOOO~~ [upon viewing this comment she calls me irritating. what joy]

her grandpa has like old cameras and they're not only old..they're IMPECABLY GOOD QUALITY!! there were nikkor cams, nikkon cams and never in my entire life would i expect him to HAND me and let me HOLD his lieca camera...O.M.G!!!

so...cool...ahaha

so me went back home saturday night and had to put up the christmas tree!!!!!

YAY!!!
this year we put it up REAL fast. toook like 4 hours? normally we take the whole day and end at night, but it was cool ahaha. lenny came over yesterday and she was stunned at the decor in and outside me house. i guess people arnt used to the entire christmas feel ahaha XD but to me, the decor is still the same as before. a little less extravagant but still there. XD

k gtg now..read through my nursing lab notes,theory test tmr. XD cya sweethearts.

2008-11-20T08:39:00.002+08:00

alright. its 8.40am and im skipping research methodology with lenny. in the library now using the com in the library cafe.

i am sleepy
yesterday was a tiring day. i shant elaborate for that is totally uncalled for but my entire body ACHES!! shouldve stretched. stretch. gah.

helping lenny with her prejudice slides now..i want to be on my bed with my nice pretty warm blanket with my soft comfy pillows. how i wish i could roll about on my bed. soft comfy bed.

i dont wanna go to hokkaido come december. i was looking forward to it and now? not really. i wanna stay here with lenny. how it hurts just imagining it. but the airfare and ticket has been paid so i kinda have to go. or suffer the consequences, paying $30,000 back to mummy dearest.

eyes closing. im very slow mo today dudes and dudettes, im so sorry. tired.

2008-11-16T20:16:00.005+08:00

today we celebrated mama's birthday
[mama is how we,the kwek family and all peranakan families, adress our grandmothers.]

it started with mass at BSC where i bumped into bebe and her 2 sisters and then off to makan at kia hiang restaurant, near bkt merah. we used to go there all the time to celebrate my kong kong's birthday when he was still around. man it hurts to type that down. but what needs to be said must be and we have to accept his passing. it rings fresh in my mind,all the birthdays and all the times we spent with him. his passing was sudden but must be taken as a lesson. a lesson to treasure the ones we hold dear and not take them for granted, saying: 'we've got time.' time is of essence.

but moving on.

we ate like ravenous beasts. not cuz the food was good, the standard had dropped through the years and the prices were enough to burn a hole in your pocket just looking at them, but beacuse we were famished and the company was special. cozy. warm. nothing extravagant, we had that last year for mama's 80th birthday celebration. her 81st was decided to be a small one. mama asked me while at mass 'what is your favourite colour ah?' i replied telling her it was red when really its a tie between black and the response i gave her but i know that saying black to an elderly true-blue chinese peranakan matriach was..well, equivalent to courting death. something i'd very much like to stay away from.

mama smiled and said,'same as me. you and i both like red. i like everything, top to toe, red.' i flashed a genuine smile. i like it when i talk to her. i feel like ive bridged an invisible yet strong connection, something i doubt the rest of my family has. but i would never know.

mama told me she was going to cook ayam buah keluak on her birthday, i think thats how ones spells it. blame it one my not so wholesome peranakan upbringing. she tells me its because auntie noni and auntie diana will be dropping by on that day. everyone loves her cooking. who wouldnt?

i told her i'd go down and pick it up from her after school, something i wanted to keep a surprise but couldnt help it. i want to bring lenny down and let her meet mama, im quite sure they will get along just fine. they both speak malay so i'll have question marks flying about and around my head. but thats not a worry at all. ahah.

so after lunch we all went back. we said goodbye and see you again to my aunt and her family and sent mama back home. then i waited to meet lenny. the plan was to head down to bugis but hehe i dont like the heat. i think everyone or majority of my friends know that.

so we headed down to suntec but before that i ran up, wore the shoes she bought for me from JB and placed the little wooden box she gave me on my bed. inside was a note. a beautifully written piece of art i hold dear to me.

we went out. took pictures. just had fun spending time with the ones we love. i had to rush back cuz my parents were upset with me and that kinda spoilt the entire evening but there's always the phone and tomorrow.

and now with all that said..its time for this extremely long post to be decorated with a splash of colour in the form of..PICTURES!!! this is the bottle lenny gave me and that what i wore today ahaha wheeee

the grand daughtersall the grandchildren
XD

couple shoes!!
awww so cute
failed attempt to dodge the camera
the chest baby gave me
its us!!

2008-11-13T12:51:00.002+08:00

in school now..blogging. like i always do.
me got lecture later. then tut then home.

god i cant wait for school to end. me will SLEEEEEPP!!!!

the weather has been so frickin cooling!! it was initially now its kinda getting a little too humid for my liking. but if it did revert back to its ORIGINAL nice coolingness..it'll be the perfect weather to cuddle up with the one you love and just snooze man. screw the alarm clock mann!! SLEEP RULES!!

god i hate projects. especially when they involve maths and thinking. the 2 things i detest.
research methodology AND statistics. the key word here being AND. individually they are manical enough to drive u up the wall and through a high way. together.
i dont wanna think about it. GAH!!

helping lenny with her project now so me shall update..ANOTHER TIME!

2008-11-10T20:44:00.002+08:00

'straight out of line.
i cant find a reason
why i should justify my ways
straight out of line
i dont need a reason
and you dont need to lie to me'

thats this week's anthem.

k so anw..it is official..lenny and i are together. she's broken up with her now ex-gf. and yeah we're frickin happy together.

I BEAT HER ASS AT PACHIKO PRECIPICE!!! YEAH!!! ahahahah me wuvs u lenny love even though u already know that.

our official date is the 5th of nov. the day me met her mummy..her mum likes me and thats EXCELLENT [cuz me mum doesnt show that to her own daughter...but yeah]

i miss fluff-ball..her kitty cat and I LOVE HER HOUSE~~~~ ikea showroom much much ahaha

cant wait to be with her tmr XD..

eat ur heart out bitches!!! let them eyes wonder and alll worxxxxzzzzzzxxxx

k im SUPPOSE to be studying my pharmaco for the mock test on wednesday...but i guess i INTENTIONALLY left it in school...stupid mistake laaa but gah...

[lenny stop calling me ah kwek!! but me still loves u]

2008-11-02T18:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2 DAYS AFTER HALLOWEEN!!!!

halloween was AWESOME this year!!!

we didnt do much..just dressed up and went to hogs breath BUT!! what we did was crazy shit

who went were:

grace, gek, val,wei jie,clifford and myself.

graceypoo went as a witch, gek went as a devil,val went as a ghost[a very friendly one but tried her best to be scary..XD], tau huay went as a dude in full black [GET A DAMN DT SHIRT ALREADY!!!] clifford was in school uniform and i went as a vampire [no surprise there..though ppl said it look a little too cosplayish..gah whatever man]

-this is a current update...stupid this didnt post on time..-

IM AT LENNY'S NOW!!!

and in my PREVIOUSLY UNSAVED POST!!! [did it in school and thing didnt register]

and another update directly from Lenny...

I am IN LOVE with Cassie!

awww aint that sweet...GAH!! ahahah

stupid girl snored last night so me didnt sleep well..and with that i get whacked several times on the thigh,like thats anything new..-rolls eyes-

but me sad..gots to go home tonight..gonna miss her..but there's always monday XD!!!! and tuesday and WEDNESDAY...XD
she rushes me now so TAH-TAH!!!!

2008-10-27T19:40:00.002+08:00

'i dont want it all. i just want you.'

baby i really do...XD

well school commences tmr..the long weekend is almost over.

im apocalyptica crazy...k i was but now its mooooore..

im SUPPOSE to be doing my n.lab work..bleh..thats all i can say.

tired to blog

2008-10-25T18:11:00.003+08:00

okay so i must say this week breeeezed by rather fast..

good but not good cuz that means projects are going to be due

gg for the peranakan play later..kinda forgot what its about but there'll be alot of nonyas in kebayas and i dont have one..pouts.. :((((..fucking ex la one kebaya...148 eh! craaaaazy..me wont pay!!

but yeah been chores-ing and revising..gotta get my GPA up man...will update another time...wheeeeeeeeeeee

[a newly converted fan of sandra nasic]

2008-10-21T17:57:00.003+08:00

im suppose to do my work but i havent been able to cuz..i just havent

alotta shit on my mind but i cant get it out. i wanna tell someone but there seems to be no one i can turn to. sad as this sounds:

gabe is not in the picture of my life.
it seems to be just me.
alone.

even though I KNOW there are people i can turn to. my close buddies that will never let me down but...each has his/her own group of peeps. i seem to be the only one that is alone in tuts and practs and breaks. i dunno whats happening.

like a feather floating in time and space. slowly drifting to the ground.
like sand shifting and falling through fingertips of glass
i feel lost and so alone.
maybe there's something seriously wrong with me.

seriously wrong.
like bi-polar or something like that. i dunno.. i hate the things now.

its raining. again. more fun love and joy.

i should be doing my work. i really should be. gastric lavage. pharmaco. feel stupid-er in lectures.

i tell u i love you but the response it a rude awakening. so what can i do?

'i dont mind.
i dont care.
as long as you're here..'

2008-10-19T14:04:00.004+08:00

alright so..its sunday..

tmr the new week begins..the 8am routine. gah. slept till 12 today and that is a record mind u.

looking for a long sleeve top to go with my corset. i just realized that halloween is so so so so so so so so so so so so so so near and ive yet to prep the candy bags and my outfit. so screwed. so this week its off to city link mall to get the shirt i wanted to get. either that or this fashion. so screwed.

me tired. i dont wanna go to school. too complex. 8am classes only make it worse. me no likey being yr 2. i have to get my GPA up man. im aiming at a 3.5. yes so that by some miraculous divine intervention i can get a 3 or 2.9.

oh oh OHHHHH!!!!
I BOUGHT ULTRA BEATDOWN!! DRAGONFORCE'S NEW ALBUM WITH THE DVD!!

i am a happy kid. yet to watch it though cuz sis using the lappie and this com is cocked up. every time i load the cd in the whole thing just so pfth..restart. so to entertain myself im watching airborne's vids over and over again.

god i love a man with long hair. give em a musical instrument and bring on the hard rock honey.

'I CANT GET ENOUGH OF THAT DIAMOND IN THE ROUGH!!
I CANT GET ENOUGH OF YOUR DIAMOND IN THE ROUGH!!'

k diamond in the rough is a highly sexual song [if u are bored enough u can go look the lyrics up]so what?!? its an anthem in my head! went to bed singing it and woke up headbanging to it.

AC/DC's new song rock and roll train from their soon-to-be-in-stalls album BLACK ICE!! exudes pure glorious rock and roll. so filled with testosterone and rrrrrrock. its like an ejaculation from the gods of rock!!!

k a little high ah.. had corn beef for lunch, a childhood treat only rekindled 14 yrs after.

check this out dudes!!!

cool eh? ahah

2008-10-16T11:38:00.002+08:00

blogging in school AGAIN!! XD!!

oddly enough i can only find time to blog in school..what does that say about me? ahaha..whatever it is,frankly i dont care. im estatic!

yes the word of the WEEK..not the day as i always say, is ESTATIC!! [i pray im spelling it right. i rely heavily on phonics. childhood habit. bite me bitch ahah]

research methodology was a pain like any other module that incorporates stats in it. lecturers fail to understand that we are not as overjoyed as them regarding the learning of their so called module so please kindly understand when we are dead tired, sleepy and looking like the living dead at 8am. its not easy. we all know that,lecturers and students alike so why put ALL of us in such misery? but work has to be done so we take it in out strife. [why do i feel like im typing a personal memoir?..oh wait..i kinda am. but it feels so formal. gah]

gonna skipper-ippy-ding-ding my lecture later and hang out with her. ppl have started noticing. we are getting bolder but i frankly [frank is the word of the day i guess] dont give a hoot about it. i just wanna be together with her. if its a crime then i guess im breaking the law [judas priest..oh coolsomeness ahaha]

2008-10-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

blogging in school now..at risk of being caught..lets hope not ya?

its shitty starting class EVERYDAY at 8am ya know?

fucking tired.me going off now..meow

this....indeed is a short post

2008-09-28T18:07:00.002+08:00

alright so..

last week of IMH attachments commence tmr.

what have i been doing? trying to keep myself sane. sutpid report needs to be done by tmr. handed in and nicely placed in my C.I's palm by 8.30 in the frickin a.m. fuck

yes fuck

thats what this entire weekend was. fuck.

grace and tau huay couldnt come over yesterday cuz mum only let them come for no less than 2 hrs. so i slogged off doing my frickin report. sent it to yiqi and then waited for her reply. in the mean while, im running around the house looking for things to wash so i avoid being scolded by mum. then 5pm my mentor decides to call me via house phone just as im about to leave for church. great. get 5 ppl.so mass sms and wait s'more.

sunday, today. wake up early and get the damn report done. whole day its been report report report report report report pee report. but i had sign to accompany me. thank god for that. it took me forver to find their songs again. zolberg's still hot. 21 hot bastard. yeah so its like 6.15 P.M~~..finally got the REPORT done. hands hurt from writing what feels like a mile's worth of words. finally done.

gotta prep for my arts and crafts session im holding on tues..but then again i might wanna hold it on thurs cuz ive got more time. hmmmm interesting.yeah i think i'll hold it on thurs. easier. more time!! yay!

ah im so tired..and im fat and im fat and im fat and im fat.

2008-09-20T21:15:00.002+08:00

have i mentioned that russell brand is hot?
fucking hot..

and he's a gemini ahah...

HOT!!

yes this is the russell brand obsessed post ahaha

i would put up pics but the com is lagging ever so nicely so yes go type russell brand in the yahoo image search bar..

me wuv!!

oh and polyclinic was broing cuz me couldnt do anything but yeah. imh attachies start in 2 days time. im scared ahah..cuz i dunno what to expect..k anw..im off to watch more russell brand..that fucking hot bastard ahah

2008-09-15T20:16:00.002+08:00

IM BACK SNITCHES!!

this is the post-exams, post-hols, in-the-attachments blog post.

today is the 1st day of my outram park poly attachments and im with belle and amy and i met this funny ass girl cristal [no i spelt it right]. super fun talking to her while we were working together in the well women's clinic. but then again the poly attachments u cant really DO much..i couldnt even use the cim to help my SN in the DM eye screening room to do paper work

ah phoo..but nvm tmr cristal and i will be working together in the treatment room..meow.

and me got a very bad headache from like..morning till now..very bad so gonna knock off soon after im done watching my russell brand clips..have i mentioned he's fucking hot? HAWT!!

k off to sleep now..i know its early but yeah..head pain TAH-TAH!!

2008-08-01T18:33:00.002+08:00

today? was bad..yes..

i had marshmallows for u but it aint my fault u guys didnt wanna sit here..ur loss la..and i really shouldnt be so nice to ppl..a little bitterness wont kill

super touchy man..mabel kept on telling me to shuttup and hit me and fuck..and every action has a reaction therefore she shout i shout, she hit i hit.simple.

1st day of 7th month,not a good day.

during lunch it took forever for the girls infront of me to pick what they want to eat from the yong tau foo store and then it took them forever to get their food and pay for it and when i was my turn, i stepped back on someone's foot and had soup spilled all over my hand and shoe.

whole hand was red but it soon faded and i had to walk around with a squisy shoe..ah well what to do

i had loadsa fun with yana though..we crapped like mad throughout pharmaco lect and during the mock test..we both got full marks but thats thanks to us cheating..yana is super stupid la
!! but she's my good friend!!!! my nonsence good friend who doesnt eat in school ahaha..

I WUV ALL MY FRIENDS~!

2008-07-30T13:53:00.002+08:00

in school blogging.

passed my BCLS pract and theory..so happy when i did!! i had to do rescue breathing 3 times before my examiner passed me.i was so thankful she did cuz things were looking bad la..paniced but all my assesors were super nice. especially Ms Ng, our critical tin-tin lecturer? i thought she was really fiece and shit but she made my assessment super super easy. we were laughing la during the testing. awesome shit

but today...it started out bad, lonely and super fucked up. had to deal la what to do. but thanks many many to esther and joey. u guys really made my day.

bought marb ice mint..it was like..awesome!! its almost like smoking a fisherman's friend ahah..awesome..

omg i hate the new rihanna song..its..so irritating..but i know it's gonnna be a hit in the club and with all those cheeeena super cheena ppl..me no likey them..

told mum about stuff yesterday and i told her i cant stand chinese boy and those clingy whiney chinese girls and she retaliated saying 'what wrong with chinese boy?'

the answer? everything..immature thats the main problem.
i think she knows about gabe ahaha but whatever man i dont care..he's my everything.

pharmaco mock on friday..havent studied yet and esther's doing her e-lerning now so mayb i should go check it out too..hmm

ah well..bye bye blogy!! for now....

2008-07-18T17:33:00.002+08:00

got back early today

today
this very very depressing day.

woke up indecisive
left the house forgetting cash and know 'shit today's not gonna be good'

hit the train..squished like crazy as usual

got to city hall...already on the train..shit forgot sab's mars bar..hmmmm alright so yeah...

walked to school alone again....alone..friday..alone

never mind that..school sucked..but it sucked even more after school...feel like i just got dumped..fucked up shit yeah but whatever u know?? life goes on too fast
school piling up so what to do..move the hell on and harden my heart. like ive done

made a song..smoked 4 straight and felt better..
was reaching for the whiskey when momma came bustin thru them doors...

im a sad little girl now but heck it i got ma baby boy. he can make me happy even when im dead down

2008-07-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

eyes are dry..blinking alot but it doesnt seem to have an effect...

was watching hana kimi on cable tv hmm wheeee...NANBA SEMPAI!! still so hot

spent the day doing chores and ended up only finishing like 3 pages from the pharmaco book which has like, oh, i dunno...800 OVER PAGES!?!?!?! the reason why i stayed homj today was to do work..i think we need the helper again!! mummy!! helper!! we need to study!!

k nvm now

had a feast at mama's house..babi pontei, chai poh neng, prawns and ladies fingers and otah-otah but who CAN complete a meal without belachan! then mama said that one of the someone someone came back from london, she's a flight stewardess and she brought back those small ice cream pots they give on the air planes..all strawberry..all from britain..all goodness..u can taste and gnaw on the little bits of strawberry..good desserts!!

then mama took out the twix bars from australia..yummmmmmmm...

therefore my 3 month baby is hanging out again..

school is stressful and i really wish i had more than just this weekend to get stuff done..oh wait i have monday..but gabe's coming over so i dunno how much me i have ahaha

was watching the new PCD vid, 'when i grow up'..and then i moved on to other vids and it made me think...

'GOOD GOD IM FRICKIN FAT!!'

and it hit harder than ever before..not fun but whatever..im gettin there...
mum making dried laksa tmr..hmmmm k so maybe im 2 steps back but! i cant give up!! failure is not an option! then its ayam bua kelua for dinner..thats no good but..its yummy goodness!! wakaka

mr bala has no sense of humour..that..is an understatement that NEEDS to be said..

2008-07-10T11:56:00.002+08:00

so now..me in the e-plaza now...updating again..

with joey, esther and lenny...stupid monkeys i telleth u..esther was mimicking our near and dear friend. such accuracy it became well, weird and very much irritating.

mabel's no where to be found..

ibrahim ended lect at 11 instead of the allocated 2 hours he was given so now its a 3 hour break..1pm is entreprenuership dicussion with the crazies on stuff i myself dont know but whatever..just..occupado me ya?

im falling sick...really bad..weather is hot cold hot cold..
step into the LT today wishing that it would welcome me with icy cold bliss..foooom..no different from the temperature outside..[ mind u it was pouring when i woke up at about 7.30am. stopped about 8.15. no wind] dissapointing yes? so yeah.
the shopping arcade. its hot outside.step in and cooooooooooooooooooooool air!!

oh and HI BAO XIANG FOR SMILING AT ME THIS MORNING!

henry..dont be irritating ah!

im testing the computer internet speed in school. i know its slow but yeah, please not too slow. trying to load the it's all tears from versatile doom. ville valo..and his smirking smile..good god.melts into a puddle. so hot. too hot..WAKAKAK!!

its like..LSD..u get hooked once and u hooked fo life yo!

reading the comments posted on VD's interview with ville and its hilarious:

madaboutmadsen (4 days ago)
this guy makes me want to smoke my lungs out

mkdragonslayer (3 days ago)
The cameraman who directed his interview should be fired... lol, because halfway through the freakin' interview the cameraman had the camera just focused on ville's lips, i wanna see his whole beautiful face dammit!!!

crazyjulieta (6 days ago)
"fairly young" lol yeah Ville you are still "fairly young" ;)

funny eh? im bored...again..internet speed...remote..almost deeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaddddd!!

OMG OMG OMG YES IT LOADED!! ahaha wheee..like 5secs worth but it loaded!! omg i feel like a proud mother!! wakaka..crazy

2008-07-08T20:41:00.002+08:00

ab.psyc done..the presentation cycle begins..

im sooooooooo tired...soooooooooo bored...sooooooooooo disorientated...i find myself waking up each morning going 'what day is it?' like im some drunk who took too much and lost all memory of the week..

brenda told me all the fun things the SU are gonna do..i cant wait..

exams week 18..then hols then attahcments..

my calluses are gone..thats not good..guitaring would be irritating again...

i miss them...all of them..so much it hurts..and when they look at me i wonder 'darling,what are u thinking about? do i disgust u so badly?'

HIM's versatile doom is not released here...HMV is not carrying it in..i am sad..so im watchin korean girls sing and the VD dvd on youtube...

ville valo is as cute as a marshmallow..

i want HIM&HER...

2008-07-06T14:55:00.003+08:00

me bored..

you think of a thousand and one things with a bottle of coke to do online but when u finally do get to your lappie and turn it on, hit the net..you realize..dammit what's there to do..

going to my uncle's grand daughter's b'day party later..she's my aunt..small little baby is my aunt..eh..i dont wanna go..for what? we're not even related..technically..auntie christy was a kwek that married a...i dunno uncle gilbert's surname..so diluted blood line and yeah...AH!!

its s sunday for crying out loud!! u stay home and rest you hear me?!?! you dont....GO OUT on a sunday!! ITS REST DAY!!! REST!! DAY!!

rewatching jumanji to pass the time...gah im bored..and gah! i dont wanna go..mum just reminded me that we're picking my mama up at 5.30....2 and a half more hours...

found out brenda's in contact with ppl who KNOW my eyecandy..k well..one of them...but still...SHE HAS CONTACT!!

tmr's the retest...im quite confident..i hope i pass..stupid mistake made for my nursing lab thing..just hit me i havent updated since...2weeks back? ahah sorry..too busy..the 'coming back home to sleep' routine is well coming back! aahaha

got new coloured contacts on monday and lenny gave me her black 'punk' j-rock visual k jacket...grace...WEEP IN ENVY!! ahahaha..all pics are on my friendster..so yeah go check em out...

dunno what to type now..am tired..SHIT!! im suppose to do the call eveyone online to discuss the entrepreneur shit..oh damn

ah well...too late now..

2008-06-25T21:15:00.002+08:00

IM FREE!!!
from the torture of my GE episode!!
from my dreaded nursing theory test!!
and the 1000 word essay i was suppose to rush by friday!!

nursing theory test today was...suprisingly do-able..i guess it thanks to ms kamaliah who took the extra step to scrap our ECG pract scheduled today to focus on our theory which we complained alot about..but really we had no clue on practically...everything..

everything she went through with us in class today came out!! EVERYTHING!!! like..all the questions were what we went through!!

thanks ms kamaliah!! you're super cool dudette ahah!!

now? mentally preparing self for the practical test..either im first as per normal or im last which would be a change..

joining gabe in amelia's sister's play on friday..was persuaded into it but yeah i'll go...aahaha school plays can be fun..

totally hooked onto megadeth and iron maiden...only thing im listening is the warchest and iron essentials..kinda sad..want more but ah well we'll see..dont wanna use up the money from my birthday..save it up and keep it for a rainy day...

sleepy...falling asleep as i type..i hope yana sleeps tonight..SLEEP LA!! HAIYO!! DONT MAKE ME LIGNOCANE YOUR BRAIN!! wakakakkaa

GRACEYPOOOO WHEN CAN WE MEET HONEY!!! I WANNA GET THEM CONTACTS!!

2008-06-17T11:12:00.002+08:00

wonderful wonderful story for u guys...

yesterday went out with brenda for a movies at GWC and we got popcorn and i decided to get a cheese hotdog..now this hotdog tasted weird but i was like i paid for this shit so im gonna eat it

STUPID MISTAKE!!!

felt weird in the movie theater and moved about alot in my seat..next thing u know my stomach is hurting like hell...diarrhea..joy..then we went down to eat and i told brenda i needed something soupy or so she calls it 'soapy' and we decided to eat at the jap restaurant beside o-cha..price range is reasonable man...i got this special miso ramen and brenda got her 'you-nagi' don..i keep telling her its pronounced 'oooo-nagi'...'you-nagi' sounds so vulgar like' YOU-NAGI CHICKEN!!'..see my point? yeah food was good but i had a few bites and i didnt feel right..excused myself to the toilet..now this is where it gets bad..

on my way there..for those who have been to GWC you would know..i have to pass by coffee bean then the chocz shop,aunt annies,mac cafe and then the lifts to get to the toilet..so the moment i walk pass coffee bean my vision was blacked out and then i started to walk with an uneven gait...vision cleared up a little but i had to work on a 50% black out..

i pass chocz and then i had to hold onto something so i was trying to support myself as i walk by aunt annie's..like i said..i was trying my best to walk straight but blurred vision made me walk like a drunkard

i knew i was gonna faint any minute but i pushed myself to get to the toilet and puke cuz i felt the world spinning and i felt my puke coming out..i couldnt breathe and the next thing u know im crashing into the sign near the lifts...embarressing but hey i didnt really care...

stumbled slowly to the toilet cuz if i ran,which i wanted to do so sooooooooooooooo badly, i'd puke like hell..went into the toilet and i was like FUCK THIS SHIT IM PUKING IN THE SINK...but i still had time to go..no cass dont be inconsiderate..get your ass to the toilet...didnt even have time to close the cubicle door..just pushed my hair back and bend over then the red sea came spewing out..lasted about a min...i could literally feel my stomach contracting..it is so terrible...

then had diarrhea again.. and after excreting from both ends, hobbled to the restaurant but called gabe..i mean...i crashed into the sign..gotta play it cool...felt better so i ate my food...didnt wanna waste 14 bucks..then we hobbled home..by now the sickey icky feeling came back and i made a stupid mistake of crossing the bridge and calling gabe without catching my breath...got home and couldnt breathe so sat down and i was really weak..body felt like a ton and i dragged me self to the toilet...guess what?? stomach contracted and puked again...thats when dad sent me to the docs and doc diagnosed me with gastroenteritis..this is what it is

Gastroenteritis (also known as gastro, gastric flu, and stomach flu although unrelated to influenza) refers to inflammation of the gastrointestinal tract, involving both the stomach and the small intestine (see also gastritis and enteritis) and resulting in acute diarrhea. The inflammation is caused most often by infection with certain viruses, less often by bacteria or their toxins, parasites, or adverse reaction to something in the diet or medication. Worldwide, inadequate treatment of gastroenteritis kills 5 to 8 million people per year,[1] and is a leading cause of death among infants and children under 5.[2]
At least 50% of cases of gastroenteritis as foodborne illness are due to norovirus.[3] Another 20% of cases, and the majority of severe cases in children, are due to rotavirus. Other significant viral agents include adenovirus [4] and astrovirus.
Many different bacteria can cause gastroenteritis, including Salmonella, Shigella, Staphylococcus, Campylobacter jejuni, Clostridium, Escherichia coli, Yersinia, and others. Some sources of the infection are improperly prepared food, reheated meat dishes, seafood, dairy, and bakery products. Each organism causes slightly different symptoms but all result in diarrhea. Colitis, inflammation of the large intestine, may also be present.
Risk factors are consumption of improperly prepared foods or contaminated water and travel or residence in areas of poor sanitation. The incidence is 1 in 1,000 people

Symptoms and signs
It often involves stomach pain or spasms (sometimes to the point of being crippling), diarrhea and/or vomiting, with noninflammatory infection of the upper small bowel, or inflammatory infections of the colon.[8][5][1][9]
It usually is of acute onset, normally lasting fewer than 10 days and self-limiting.
Nausea and vomiting
Diarrhea
Loss of appetite
Abdominal pain
Abdominal cramps
Bloody stools (dysentery - suggesting infection by amoeba, Campylobacter, Salmonella, Shigella or some pathogenic strains of Escherichia coli[4])
Fainting and Weakness
The main contributing factors include poor feeding in infants. Diarrhea is common, and may be (but not always) followed by vomiting. Viral diarrhea usually causes frequent watery stools, whereas blood stained diarrhea may be indicative of bacterial colitis. In some cases, even when the stomach is empty, bile can be vomited up.
A child with gastroenteritis may be lethargic, suffer lack of sleep, or run a low fever and have signs of dehydration, which include dry mucous membranes, tachycardia, reduced skin turgor, skin color discoloration, sunken fontanelles and sunken eyeballs and darkened eye circles, glassy eyes,poor perfusion and ultimately shock.
Symptoms occur for up to 6 days on average. Given appropriate treatment, bowel movements will return to normal within a week after that.

last night? slept for like 2 hour intervals before waking up to stomach pains and the urge to puke but i had nothing left to vomit out so i just coughed out and puked out my saliva..mum woke up at 7 and i was already up.trying to fall back asleep...and she made me take milo and some bread..she told me to take more so i did and i felt nauseas again but slept it off...woke up at 10.30..didnt want to but yeah..tummy discomfort

so hauled myself to the toilet and headed to the study room to get the roller chair thing..then felt my breakfast coming up and!! puked it all out again...how fun..tasted milo and medication...gah..

mum insists i take porridge before she left..even cooked rice...and sis's on her way home to be my FULL TIME SLAVE!!!!! wakakakakaka..i hate this feeling man..terrible..

gonna do pharmaco ica now ahaha stupid me..but i cant sleep!!

2008-06-15T18:48:00.002+08:00

stealing from rosh's blog again!!!

100 qs quiz!!

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.: awan n. cloud berawan adj.cloudy..its a malay-english dictionary

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?` newspapers on the sofa

3. Before you started this survey, what were you doing?`eating a char siew bao and blogskining

4. What is the last thing you watched on TV?`" the making of narnia the 1st one..too lazy to type it out

5. Without looking, guess what time is it?`7.10pm

6. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?`7.04pm

7. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?`the tv..i think its what hard to kill or something..steven segel in it..dad's watchin im not

8. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?` 10.10 for mass and father;s say lunch

9. Did you dream last night?' nope but kept thinking about gabe

10. Do you remember your dreams?`sometimes..especially the weird ones or the freaky ones

11. When did you last laugh?`2 hours ago mayb?

12. Do you remember why / at what?`family guy was playing on star world...funny as hell..stewy was fat ahahah so cute!! cynical bastard

13. What is on the walls of the room you are in?` posters of my fav bands and even bigger posters of ville and pics of me and gabe plus the new photoframe he gave me whee!!

14. Seen anything weird lately?`eh...nope..i think

15. What do you think of this quiz?'..gah?

16. What is the last film you saw?` KUNG FU PANDA!!!

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? ` finland...or italy..live off the land..make-a good pasta!!

18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?` invest in a good bussiness and get a house for gabe and i

19. Tell me something about you that most people don't know. ` i can wiggle my ears?? slightly but yeah..I CAN!!

20. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would youdo?`for ALL weapons to be destroyed

21. Do you like to dance?`yup yup but i do it in the safety of my home or shower ahaha

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?`i already have ahaha

23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams?` CK..calvin klein..but in this case its cass kwek ahah

24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?`gabe..he's the only one who calls me anyway ahaha

25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?` blog skins...im that useless

26. Last time you swam in a pool?-last yr

27. Type of music you like most?`METALL!!!! or old school rock

28. Type of music you dislike most?`techno and trance and im stuck with a boyfriend who LOVES THEM!!! gah!

29. Are you listening to music right now?`nope but im gonna watch the larc en ciel dvd later when im done with this

30. What color is your bedroom carpet?`dont have one

31. If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, whatwould you do?` expand it and get a room for myself and then redecor with everything i like

32. What was the last thing you bought?`father's day vouchers and stress out pills/candy for my dad

33. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?`nope but i want my harley

34. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?` HELL NO!

35. Do you have a garden?`nope but i guess u can call the line of potted plants up the stairs outside my house a garden

36. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?` yes..not very patriotic but i can make it!!

37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?` -yawn yawn toss turn BIG YAWN toss turn and open eyes ARGH SO BRIGHT toss toss turn-

38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?` ville valo!! and hope he likes me ahahah

39. Who sent the last text message you received?`gabe..he's with the guys now

40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?`if im like really filthy rich then i'd choose...i dunno ahahah..the high end stuff and a slimming center/liposuction

41. What time is bed time?`11/12pm

42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?`nope and i dont wanna do it anw..i'll lose to the standard faced chinese cutesy girls anw..just take a look at the new paper new face thing..all look the SAME!!

43. How many tattoos do you have?` none at the moment but i will soon

44. If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one?` 5 to be exact ahaha

45. What did you do for your last birthday?`get together with gabe gek and grace ahah whee!!

46. Do you carry a donor card?`nope..

47. Who was the last person you ate dinner with?`dad..

Is the glass half empty or half full?`full..weird cuz i use to think empty..when i was really negetive and shit

49. What's the farthest-away place you've been?`states when i was a kid

50. When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?`me no likey tomatos and there aint no home grown thing

51. Have you ever won a trophy?`in primary school...2

52. Are you a good cook?`eh compared to the women in my family..no where close

53. Do you know how to pump your own gas?`dont drive therefore dont know

54. If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?` my kong kong..i wanna know who he is..

55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?`its a must till poly

56. Do you touch-type?` whats a touch type

57. What's under your bed?` sister's bed..double decker

58. Do you believe in love at first sight?`kinda

59. Think fast, what do you like right now? to pee

60. Where were you on Valentine's day?`taking my exam paper

61. What time do you get up?` normally on a day without school about 12..with school? 6.30am..today? 9am

62. What was the name of your first pet?` bumper ahah...my loveable goldfish...sherry girl was my grandma's dog but its kinda mine too ahh

63. Who is the second to last person to call you?`gabe ahah again

64. Is there anything going on this weekend?`weekend just ended...next weekend unknown

65. How are you feeling right now?`tired...will this end soon

66. What do you think about the most?` if i type it out here..it wont even be the tip of the iceberg

67. What time do you get up in the morning?`its all up there

68. If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?`id tell my family and boyfriend first ahah

69. Who would you tell first?`again..up there

70. What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?' KUNG FU PANDA!!

71. Do you sing in the shower?`yes all the time ahah

72. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? DIDNT U ASK ME THIS JUST NOW?

73. What do you do most when you are bored? `stone infront of the tv

74. What do you do for a living?`full time student full time stoner part time studier ahah

75. Do you love your job?`no...i dont like jobs anw ahah

76. What did you want to be when you grew up?`an actress or a director

77. If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?`something in the arts field

78. Which came first the chicken or the egg?` eggs

79. How many keys on your key ring?`about 6 but i know there're more

80. Where would you retire to? `home with gabe

81. What kind of car do you drive?`currently none and i dont see one in the near future

82. What are your best physical features?`i think...THINK! its my eyes,lips or legs

83. What are your best characteristics? sincerely helping ppl out..then i get used as a doormat and then it sucks

84. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?` back to the states and then back to london and then to finland before hitting italy and coming back home only to leave for australia

85. What kind of books do you like to read?`depends...

86. Where would you want to retire to?`same question therefore look above thank u

87. What is your favorite time of the day?`night time..its cooling..the sun's down and i can sleep too ahah

88. Where did you grow up?`singapore!! and a short time in san fran

89. How far away from your birthplace do you live now?` technically i was born in NUH but if you're talking about my 1st place? its bukit batok which is far far away!!

90. What are you reading now? .` what im typing

91. Are you a morning person or a night owl?`afternoon

92. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? `just a weeeee little bit

93. Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?`yup yup

94. Do you have pets?`3 goldfish

95. How many rings before you answer the phone?`1st or 2nd cuz the hp is always with me

96. What is your best childhood memory?`running around in the huge bukit batok flat..i was like what? 1/2 yrs old

97. What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? .`student,student nurse and a bookshop helper thing

98. Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?`im acctually excited to watch the larc dvd grace lent me

99. What is most important in life?.`todo unto others as you want other to do unto you

100. What Inspires You?`alot of stuff...nature..people...music

2008-06-15T18:15:00.002+08:00

alright so week review..im sick..thats pretty much all u need to know but i did hang out with grace and her band and we had so much fun...maybe filling in as the 1st guitarist..gah i dont like solos...but i love angela's ibanez electric guitar...

stayed at gabe's place friday night..its out 1st yr anniversary sat so since his mum was out might as well eh? so we met at NewYork NewYork city hall and ate there and as usual he has the ribs and i had the pasta..food was awesome!!!

baby got me 5 more shirts LED ZEPPLIN SHIRTS!!! he got me this set of earrings that come with a necklace and a ring..it was cheap true but it was so beautiful..made him put the ring on me hahaha...and and and he burned happy anniversry cassie 14/6/2008 with a heating rod onto a wooden photoframe..i know spelling mistake but i dont care!! he picked a beautiful picture of the both of us..

i bought him a harley davidson sweatshirt which he was so so so so so darn happy to get..you shouldve seen his face..PRICELESS!! he said he almost cried!! awwwww..SCORE ONE FOR ME!!! he told me he wanted a sweater with iron maiden or megadeth on it so decided to screw that 60 dollar thing and go for a branded thing..ahahah so happy he likes it..was painicing on the size though...was afraid it was too small but there was nothing to worry about..fit him nicely

this week? i dunno whats gonna happen...going out with brenda and putera tmr...dunno where we're going so yeah...brenda's idea so yup yup

2008-06-08T19:56:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! well k fine so that was yesterday but still!! i had a great time!!

the week was...rough..i felt like a spare tyre and i felt so helpless and useless i cried in school..

thanks gek for gettin the chocs and being there during my ugly cry..thanks mabel for joining my class and gettin me through what felt like the lowest point of my life..thanks lenny for understanding and getting ma vids!! and thanks to yana,yen yen,bei bei,joey,sandy and kelvin for the wonderful wonderful card!! thank you guys so so so much for remembering my birthday and never failing to make me feel special..you guys have no idea how happy u guys made me that day..i really needed that kinda love!!! ahahah thanks so so much!!

k so how did i celebreate my birthday? simple gathering ahaha...wanted a party but everyone was busy so i went out with gabe gek and grace..3 Gs and a C...ahahah

went out for pepper lunch and movie at cathay..watched kung fu panda and its awesome!! wasnt as funny as i hoped but it was the kinda humour u wouldnt expect..very nice.....thanks u guys for spending my birthday with me!!

gabe got me 18 presents!! I WAS RIGHT!! AHAHA he got me 14 band shirts and a kiss belt buckle and!! BABY GOT ME A BOTTLE OF JACK DANIELS!!! and 2 others that i really really cant rmb but they are awesome!! WAKAKAKA...i'll get a photo of all his pressies as soon as the majority come outta the wash..

im really really eager to get a corset..ive set my eye on them for the longest time and i think im gonna get one...70 bucks for full bone lace up back so i think im gonna get it..

tmr? hols start
nothing in mind..brenda and lenny aint free so i guess im the lone ranger at home..gabe and grace have school..
mayb i'll hit the gym..

maybe....i'll write some songs...get research done...cry a little cuz ima lonely again..we'll see..for now..cya babes!!

2008-05-28T21:03:00.004+08:00

ALRIIIIIGHT!!!

so....went to the dentist today and i got the ALL CLEAR!!!! do u know how long it is since i got the all clear!?!?!? ahahah...he just cleaned and polished my teeth!!! wheeee NO DECAYS!!!!

woah.....k all of my posts start with alright....not coool..
and the badminton courts are all booked so yeah...no badminton session come friday..

this week's been....weird...up down and hormonal fluctuations

every now and then i feel like im gonna explode with anger and frustration but ive got like....nothing...so if i do something stupid..i lose almost everything.

i need new songs...and i feel..used..am i too kind? am i doing too much? i like doing things for others but i mean

do unto others as you want others to do unto you...

doesnt anything come back around?

da da du du dwey du ahaha....GO MIDNIGHT RAMBLERS!!!!

2008-05-21T12:28:00.002+08:00

IM IN THE SHS COMPUTER LAB TYPING THIS OUT NOW!!! wahahahahahah!!

so fun la!! i love the keyboard here.makes me typey like a pro..it sounds like it so thats why its so fun!!

got lab at 1..2 hour break from 11 till then..with joey in the com lab

she wanted to look up on TB but she's looking up on her friend's facebook accounts. one more thing to add to the ABC log for behaviour mod.

today..not so good day..the inital begining..got to LTH and lets just say.
my mood plummeted to the ground.it just sucked man. thanks lenny for cheering me up and thanks joey for never failing to put a smile on my face with your thousand and one funny ass stories.

have this major body ache. MAJOR!! squatting down to open my locker took me half a min. it was tormentuous!! back, sides, butt,inguinal and legs all hurt. except the calves. surprise surprise ahaha. my left leg's hurting the most which is weird cuz normally my right one's the affected one. and to think ive gotta go through that again next tues. IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF WHILE RUNNING!!!! GEK SWEE!!!! RAAAAAAAWR!!!! stupidweightlossscheme!!! DAMMIT!!

the bodyache i must say is kinda fun though. its a joke on its own. i get to laugh at myself and expense. fun!! f is for friends who do stuff together, u is for you and me. n is for anything under the sun down here in the deep blue sea!!! ahaha bebe used to sing it all the time when she was bored in STC..i miss u guys!!!!

saw this guy eating his lollipop so i decided to open mine too!!! wheeeeee

alright will blog another day. managed to open youtube so lets see if the vids load..so far..its not so yeah. bye bye nice nice keyboard..hmmm lollipop tastes like that vitamin C efferversence tablet in blackcurrant flavor..I NEED TO BRUSH UP ON MY ENGLISH!!!

2008-05-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

alright so this is the madness that happened today

gek a.k.a drill sergent from hell mad me run then circumfernce of the whole school with her today when i told her 'dude, i cant do the whole school, i can do max 3 rounds off the track, my stamina sucks!!'

BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO she forced me to get my sorry ass running round the school carparks.

she tried

TO KILL ME!!

i was walking by a little pass midpoint, calves were DYING!!! it was like...lactic acid shock!! it was so painful!!! even though i did the cool down shit i did in sec school man did it hurt...still so sore now..not to mention sleepy too much.

but thanks gek for pushing me..though i was literally draggin my sorry lil sad ass all the way back to SHS...

hitting the showers was heavenly!!! so cool....i didnt flinch when the water hit me..welcomed it ever so wonderfully!! but still bathed when i came back...so frickin hot on the way home

need rest

gonna wear my $100 skirt which i got for $28

nice eh ahhaha...

who do i go out with tmr after school? watching tone at SAC tmr night

gah..who do i ask

2008-05-04T15:24:00.002+08:00

alright so...

tmr changed shift with kelyn so she's gonna be workign with lenny and im taking morning working in my own cubicle..hmmm..all i can say is..have fun guys. tuesday's my dooms day so gah.

this week. roller coaster.major. major. it was screaming heart attack. that and my cravings came back..

i fucking hate my CI and if u were in my shoes u'd hate her too..

2008-04-28T18:28:00.002+08:00

okay so now im at starbucks with brenda doing work and slacking [this is part of it] but ive got an excuse to do so cuz ive DONE MY WORK!!!! involving my lappie....ive yet to write my objectives for my learning guide..no thanks to amirah {SITI} and lenny who made me the group leader for my shift..im sad..

I HATED SHIFT TODAY!! couldnt sleep till 1 am cuz the weather was fucking screwed!! slept for 3 hours and draged myself outta the house to find that HEY!! my stupid shoe sole is out again!!! so ran up to change shoes and ran outta the house again cuz i was running late..lack of sleep induces a state of surreal wonderment which also causes a bad perception of time. so chiong-ed outta the house to get to work by 6.30 which worked...

only good thing about the entire day was that the company was great!! mabel and zhiling werent there but nvm la...and im in the same cubicle as lenny that means i learn loads!!! wakaakakaka.... knowledge is POWER...but too much causes massive headaches like the one im suffering from now. people keep asking me if im local.PEOPLE THE ANSWER IS YES!!! just speak good english..but ah fuck a cow who really cares...

ive gotta new eye candy!!! ahahah but i rarely see him..he always takes the 3.20 nel train from little india to outram..whee!!! ahahah

kinda dreading going to work tmr...i can ignore certain factors but the thing that puts me off? screaming crying children..gah! but nvm...we need to know shit like this..

i swear if that monkey tries to fucking pop that balloon..im gonna pop his balls and all of his friends' if they attempt to do the same...

NEED SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

2008-04-27T19:18:00.002+08:00

k before i tell u how my 2 weeks of attachments have been let me just give some shout out to my friends..

to liliy!!! BABE I MISS YOU LA!!! bumping into u on the way to KKH was so nice!!! made my day!! i cant wait to u see u guys again when school starts!!

to fiza: YES U FINALLY FOUND ME!!! sorry babe for not telling u but i really take my hat off to u man...you still make that small yet magnanimous action of staying in contact with us..thanks babe and i hope to meet up with u soon!!

ALRIGHT SO....
lets start with my 1st week of attachments OBS!! thats obstetrics a.k.a care of mother just before delivery and after delivery inclusive of a nursery FULL of newborn babies!! they were all so cute!! i feel in love with this particular baby whose name im not allowed to mention and picture i am unallowed to take as he is a minor...some girls took pics of them..im just gonna say that if caught eh....legal action does include a jail sentence

so yeah..IT WAS SO FUN !!! i love babies cuz they only cry for 3 reasons

1. they're hungry
2. they're cold
3. they've got a soiled poopie diaper

and when u talk to them, they dont answer back. either stare at u with their big googly eyes or just sleep especially after u feed them.

my fav baby was so adorable..he only cries when he's hungry and squirms about when he wet his diaper but doesnt cry. i make it a point to wrap him up tightly and snugly, kinda like a dumpling cuz HE'S REALLY FAT!! i put him up high in his cot but he always ends up at the bottom within minutes..thats why i call him a dumpling/worm..i missssssssssssssssss him... but oh well

k then came the 2nd week of attachments...this week..in a gynae ward..its everything and anything under the sun about the female reproductive organ(s). alot of abortions so i dont like it there. we saw out very 1st abortion on our 1st day, a mere few hours after our shift started. when my CI picked the fetus up minutes after it had been aborted, it moved and boy did it strike a nerve. it was almost unbearable for yuling and i.

i felt so depressed having to haul myself outta bed and onto the train only to drag my then lifeless,purpose-less body and soul to the ward to witness more abortions and aborted fetuses for the next 4 days. it was agony. i hoped each day to have no MTPT cases in the cubicle i was taking and if i did i wish only to see the aborted fetus. that was it. thankfully that wish did come true. friday came and went.thank god for that.

yuling!!! im gonna miss working with you!!! she and i share the same wave length when it comes to work. ah well...it was super fun working with her!!

peads start next week/tmr. hope its better!! in many ways im looking forward to it and dreading it. shit happens. hits the ceiling. just gotta suck it up and get on with life.

i still have my secret stash of JD in my cupboard away form my mother's prying eyes...GET DRUNK!! wakakakaka..OH SHIT!! MABEL'S LIQUER CHOCS!! ahaha

2008-04-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GABEY LOVE!!

ahah well he's finally turned 21 but to me he's still 17 yup yup...
so glad i spent the whole day with him..

got him an iron maiden belt buckle and ck eternity cologne and his special surprise which has been delayed due to unforseen circumstances i.e: no ink in the printer cartriges

i miss gabe...I MISS U!!! SO MUCH!!

attachments start again next week when mummy and daddy are off in europe....FUCKING BULLSHITS!!! IM NOT WORKING WITH GEK!!!! NOT FAIR!!!!
good thing is im working with yiqi for the full 4 weeks and liliy and fiona for the 1st 2 weeks ahaha...good good..all the crazy ppl ahah

tmr im going out with gek to get books and then to marina to get her pressie

OH OH OH!!! I SAW THE LOOKALIKE TODAY!!! k from afar he looks like it but he came up to gabe and i and damn he looks BETTER THAN HIM!! aahahha and he's soo funny [gabe agrees]

and here's the 3rd most important/significant event of the day!! [1st being me spending the whole day with gabe and 2nd being me celebrating his bday with him and having so so so so so so so much fun!]

we were going back and gabe needed to pee [ no surprise there] so off to the toilet we go and on the way there we see this caucasian couple and the guy. HOT!! did sneak a few looks at him but thats that and the next thing u know gabe's smiling ear to ear telling me 'he was so checking you out'....AH!!!!!! omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg OMG!! he was so hot and he checked me out!!! gabe was happy..is reason was that..i dunno hahahah..gotta ask him yourself..

yesterday met brenda for dinner and priscilla and clarene were also there..they had been with her the whole day but yeah only met them for a short while then they had to run home [they got school thats why] and it was such a nice comforting feeling to see familiar faces again!! i missed them so much!!! i hope to see u guys at the STC funfair!!! ahaha
k well i gtg now...gotta be at yck at 10am so yup yup!! ahaha what to wear tmr ah...damn ahah nvm i'll decide later..gonna check out gabe's blog now by orders of the birthday boy

2008-04-07T13:06:00.002+08:00

alright...woke up today initially at like...7 then 8 then 9 then finally at 11...cuz of this massive body ache..found out i was running a temp 38.2.

OFF TO THE SHOWER!!
ahahah and tepid sponge myself..twas....weird...ahahah anw...

yeah...still have a headache so im like catching the wet towel on my head with my nose..joy

see dad's sick and he has low grade fever and flu..last night i ignored the sneezes i had and the occasionaly violent coughs..so now..i gotta pop pills and paracetamol..goodnesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...

HEAD ACHES!!!!! ALOT!!!
AND I DUNNO WHAT TO GET FOR GABE!!!! should i bake? should i buy the thing for him? I DUNNO!!!!! WHAT DO I DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

oh headaches even more....good god

i still want tickets to wwry...WHO HAS EM!!! GIMMIE!!!
oh i watched the channel 5 feature to the wwry contest and they got bad seats i mean...stall seats none the less but like dude..they werent center they were at the back-ish...ahahah I WAS IN THE CENTER AND FRONT-ISH!!! oh but this is the only time i'll get such seats so gah!!

bask in it while i can!!

ow ow ow ow headache

WHAT ARE U?!?!? MY GUILTY CONSIENCE?!?!?

ville...yum...

2008-04-04T23:26:00.002+08:00

k so lets review last friday till this present moment

friday:

went to the body shop sale and man it was PACKED!! LIKE PACKED!!
estrogen levels soaring and female auntie senses kicked in totally and gek and i had to punch and push and tip toe just to see the little plastic bottles or pots filled with soaps or lotions or make up. hilarious..but what's more interesting is the journey to suntec HAH!!

so the exit to suntec via city link is closed..just keep that in mind k?
arranged to meet at 1 at suntec but i mistook it for 1 at city hall mrt so mistake numero uno commited.so i rush to meet gek and told her i gotta go thru marina and she says nvm i'll meet u at city hall..so i get to city hall and gek calls saying she cant get thru to city link via suntec cuz of construction..no panic gek i'll meet u at esplanade..now she and many other non city dwellers/roamers will get lost here..i tell her to meet me at the exit along the road..then she says 'are u sure i wont get lost' after CLEAR PRECISE INSTRUCTIONS..ahahaha..i rush to the exit and come out and spot this girl in a white skirt and pink speg top walking away from the exit and towards the WWRY poster..call her and yeah...laughed our heads off over the stupid mistakes we made..so yeah shopped shopped shopped till we had to go to her ninjado thing which was cool!! ahahah had cockroaches attacking me but yeah..wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..[poor thing yueck!!]

saturday:

WE WILL ROCK YOU!! WE WERE SITTING METERS FROM THE STAGE!! I WAS CLOSE TO THE STAGE!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! SOOOO AWESOME!!
i was singing along to almost every song! the sets and clothes and song selection!! AWESOME!! AND AND AND!!!
MIG NOTICED ME!!! it was during the ending-ish of the show and one of the last songs..nobody had their hands up so mine shot up..pure instinct..both hands giving the rock to MiG love [ \m/ ]..and then he POINTS TO ME!! FROM STAGE!! and give me the sign too!! OMG BUTTERFLIES!! then everyone infront and behind put their hands up screaming and im like..okay fine..steal my limelight!! ahahah but yeah...OMG!!! HE LOOKED ME DEAD IN THE EYES!!! HE NOTICED ME!! oh i just rmb the song was we will rock you ahahaha how timely ahaha...
AWESOME!!!

sunday? home all day but the crazy queen surge that left many yrs back returned and it was youtube for like 20hrs straight and MiG mania ahahah..but yeah

monday:
hmmmmmmmm
man i can nvm rmb what happends on mondays..always...lemme recall...wow i cant but i met gabe and tues too i met gabe

wed:
went out with rosh after her attachments..alot of bitching ahahah but yeah whole lotta fun man...miss being with her la my buddy!!

thurs:
went out with gek and thats when she scares me with poor thing but that we shant push on cuz its too scary and freaking degrading but nvm...

i couldnt find the dark shadows and brilliant nightmares cd anywhere!! sickening...now i gotta wait for the new shipment and the release of HIM's new DVD...ooooo i cant wait!!! so it was hmv meeting point and then we moved to taka to look for gek's no. 1 agenda for the day: yoga mat for her yoga class starting monday...she's gonna push herself to the limits AND cause me cardiac distress..she knows ahahah

we laughed ALOT!! and the stupid thing was she laughed so much that she wasnt aware i had turned the corner and she walked laughing at the top of her lungs along the walkway of taka...ahahaha

we laughed...ALOT!! so much we had to stop occassionally to breathe and rub my back cuz i had laughed so much my kidnets were screaming 'STOP ALL THE NONSENSE!! I CANT FILTER IT ALL!!'

WAKAKAKAKAKAKA

today:
home the whole day till 7..left to meet gabe for dinner at subway..ahaha..oh and i bought these fake eyelashes..finally..now i know why women with them on blink so darn much..its so...gah...just makes u wanna blink non stop ahah...

so yeah...
ANYBODYYYYYY!!!
FIIIIIIND MEEEEEEEE!!!
SOMEOOOOOOONEEEE WHOOOO HAS TICKETS!!!
[to wwry]

2008-03-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

alright so...monday..went out with gek to bugis to shop and get clothes..ahah wheeee got cheap office pants and a top for 10bucks which was a STEAL!!

tues was spent with gabe..he took MC cuz of fever and knee aches[which he's still having..not a good thing]it was great to be able to spent the whole day with him after such a long time..went to watch 10,000BC...totally awesome movie!!! cant believe i actually delayed the entire movie going man..story line was okay..fight scenes totally cool..actor and actress hotness 101!!! but it was censored so obviously..fight scenes were cut and end evil person was not really shown..

yesterday went to NYP with brenda to get her forms and then it was off to AMK Hub to watch spiderwich chronicals which was another cool as hell movie ahah

then comes today..boring but relaxing day at home alone and then out for dinner with gabe...

tmr meeting gek again..gonna go to the body shop warehouse sale at suntec convention hall...ahahah wheeee..i need to get me body spray and lip balm...

and ive decided not to go for the trial lesson cuz i just realized that all the classes start after my yr2 curriculum begins and that means no time at all so therefore why give myself false hope and go for the trial classes..they'll still be there when i go back so yeah...thinkin mayb i'll go hang out at gek's ninjado thing tmr instead then fly home ahaha...i mean..it sounds so cool even though i tease her so much bout it ahah..yeah

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

he's almost off my back

2008-03-23T17:33:00.001+08:00

THIS IS NOT ME!! I DONT LIKE IT!!! I HATE IT!! IVE HAD ENOUGH!! I WANT TO LEAVE NOW!!

2008-03-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

quiz 1..all quizzes taken from rosh'sblog

1. Where were you at 3:02 AM thismorning?-sleeping in bed...happily ahaha

2. How did you get the idea for your Friendster name?-hele [short form of my confirmation name helena after queen helena mother of constantine who searched for the true cross on which chirst was crucified] heart [short for heartagram and how much im addicted to love ahahah] nikki cuz ive alwaysed liked the name

3. What are you listening to rightnow?-nothing but crazy by lumie dee and pit bull is playing in my brain

4. What color is your cell phone?-black with red linings

5. Do you click on pop-ups?-nope just close them

6. Do you own an iPod?-nope.. creative zen aahah

7. What was the first thing you thought this morning?-ngaaaaaaahhhhhhhh sunlight..[buries face in pillow]

8. Is the person you like older or younger than you?-3yrs older...GABRIEL!!

9. What did you do last night?-watch tv all day and leave my body print on the sofa

10. What are the last two digits ofyour cell phone number?-31

11. What was the last thing that youhad to eat?-egg and onion prata with fish curry and ice tea so i dont think i'll be sleeping till late

12. Who is the last person of theopposite sex that you hugged?- gabe ahah..wheeee miss him

14. What do you dislike at the moment?-my surprisingly annoying dry-ish throat

15. What food are you craving?-nothing at the moment

16. What did you dream last night?- i was lying in bed with ville which had gabe's lower body and went by the name mark and then i was kissing his collar bone when he suddenly left angrily and then i dunno what happened and was left stunned and crying on the bed and ran down cuz i couldnt find him..found out later from grace that he had gone out for a smoke of 16 cigs before leaving to go downstairs to find me then finally we found each other at the top deck's pool party ahah...weird eh..i call this ville hybrid mabe valo ahaha

17. What's the last TV show youwatched?-errrr.. house..but now im watchin powerpuff girls cuz im that bored and there's nothing better to watch

18. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?- the gold floral earring we bought from the H&M outlet in italy

19. Name 1 person on your Top Friendswho is most like you?- gabe but if u dont count boyfriends then it would have to be.......gek..weirdly..ahaha

20. Do you always lock your door?-my bedroom door has to lock so the other doors that do have locks? yes i lock them

21. Of the people you've kissed, howmany do you regret kissing?-hmmmm i think he knows who he is..no need to name names now

22. Who is the last person you hugged?-fiona the crazed moomoo

23. How many piercings/tattoos do youhave?- one on each ear but im planning to get more and my first tat hopefully will be on my 21st

24. Where's your favorite place to be?-anywhere with gabe or if im alone anywhere with a good view and a few ppl

25. Who's someone you haven't seen in awhile and miss?-too many man...too many

26. When was the last text you sent?-just now to gabe...dunno if he's home yet

27. Who is the last person you talkedto on the phone?-gabe when he left in the cab and i was walking home with fio and sis

28. Have you ever done anything to start trouble?- cant recall anything ahah

29. Where do you wish you were rightnow?-well im home and nothing beats hime though gabe here is a big plus!!

30. Where do you live?- singapore..in a condo in town-ish area

31. How are you?-okay...still got the flu and chesty productive cough and had the runs today but nothing too serious

32. When do you think you'll be married?-dunno...when we got enough money to get a house and set up a fam then yeah i guess we'll get married

33. Did you ever think to yourself?-all the time

34. What celebrities do people sayyou look like?- johnny depp..weird eh

35. Does it annoy you when someonesays they'll call but don't?-yes...i dont like false hope

36. Do you ever feel guilty abouteating meat?-only on fridays where i promise i wont eat meat or like i ate meat infront of my malay friends...felt realy bad

quiz 2...

1.Do you still talk to the person who hurt you the worst?-used to..now no..we're not on talking terms..i guess its better that way right?

2.Do you like to dance?-YES!!! ITS SO FREE!!

3.Are you obsessed with someone?- yes...gabe and ville and brandon!! droooooolllll

4.What is the best thing about yourjob?- learning new things and watching your patients being discharged knowing they're much better

5.Do you like more than five peopleright now?-define 'like'

6.Name something that you would liketo eat right now?-nothing...want my blankie though...kinda cold night...no need for the air con

7.Did you get any compliments today?-from gabe who said i looked hot ahah and some perv guy who did the wolfcall thing

8.Who was the last person to call you?-gabe whom im talking to now

9.If you could pick the temperatureof the outdoors for the rest of yourlife, would you?-yes i would want like 18-20 degs...with sun...like super sunny but nice and chilly

10.Do you steal people's boyfriends or girlfriends?-no...thats just wrong man

11.Are you happy?-ELATED!!!! im with gabe and my friend who care for me ahahha

12.Who was the last person you texted?-gabe aahah

13.Who was the last person you talkedto: gabe whom im talking to now

14.Are you moody?-noooooooope

15.Last person you hung out with?-fio sis and gabe

16.Have you ever tried to get backwith an ex?- yup gabe and we're together now

17.Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?-nope but i'd love to man it looks so fun

19.Have you ever gone camping?-yes and i love all the memories that i left camp with

20.Do you love someone?-my family members gabe and all my friends from sec school and poly

22.Have you ever had a stalker?-nope but had alot of girls crushing on me

23.Who was the last person to make you mad?-ahaha that i shant say

24.Are you thirsty?-yes...my throat is annoyingly dry!!

25.Are you listening to music? Whatare you listening to?: nope not listening to anything

26.What do you do before bed?-drink water and get into bed then say my goodnight prayer

27.Have you ever lied to your parents?-many times....yeah and im not proud of it cuz they're my parents and they trust me so much

28.Have you ever worn your bestfriend's clothes?-yup yup ahahah

29.Have you ever thrown up from working out?- almost..not there yet

30.Who do you miss?-tons of peeps especially since ive got like...absolutely nothing to do these days

31.Where are your siblings right now?: sis is using the com in the study room..im using the laptop in the hall

32.Last person you kissed other than family?- gabe!!!! my baby!!! ahahaha

33.Name five things you did today?- crawl outta bed,eat breakfast,watch tv,fold and keep clothes,go for easter vigil

34.Last person who you yelled at?- eh...sis but we were like fooling about la so nothing serious

35.Future kid's names?-eh...we tried thinking about it but we just kinda forgot about it...anw its so soon its unecessary

36.Do you have plans for tomorrow?-wake up and go out for easter lunch at ajisen @ funan mall

37.Are you on a laptop or a desktop?-laptop!!! lappie mmmmmmmmmm

38.What is your mood?-mix of hyper and tired

39.Is anyone jealous of you?-i dunno but whoever it is...needs a life cuz there's nothing to be jealous about mannn/woman

40.When is the last time you gotflowers?- i think it was last monday when i went out with gabe..he got me a rose..fully bloomed..it was beautiful

41.Where were you 2 hours ago?-in church at vigil

42.What were you doing last night?-watching tv and then going to bed..yesterday was just darn boring

43.What does your hair look likeright now?-long limp mass

44.Has anyone ever used you?-once too many times....so now i dont really care cuz i believe in karma

45.Has anyone ever told you that theylike you more than as a friend?-yeah but they're still my friends

46.What have you eaten today?-dad bought vegetarian beehoon for breakfast and then i shared tom yam handmade noodles+ fried fish and lemon with sugar cane juice with my sis for lunch, bubble tea for dinner and egg and onion prata with double chocolate chip cookie from subway with ice tea for supper

47.Is your hair naturally curly, orstraight?-wavey

48.Who were you last in a car with?-mum dad sis grandma and brenda on good friday when we were going back

49.What are you looking forward to?-going out tmr and meeting gabe next week AND going for the salsa crash course on friday

50.What do you think about beingcheated on?-it sucks i know..ive cheated on my bf and i felt twice he was feeling

51.Any of your friends gettingmarried sometime in the near future?-nope...long long way to go for all of us....wait wait wait I KNOW WHO!!!! but i shant say cuz she might not want to let everyone know so shhhhhhhhh my little secret

52.Is tomorrow going to be a good day?- everyday's a good day just how much goodness u want in it is up to u!!!! ahaha

2008-03-22T16:18:00.004+08:00

alright so

this is the plan..go for the salsa crash course at attitude dance studio next friday night and another at another dance studio..compare then decide if i wanna take up the course..omg i cant wait!!!!

i wanna do rumba salsa merengue or latin salsa/tango...how cool...I LOVE LATIN DANCE!!! love it...its so free and its like..u take a totally different persona the moment u are on the dacne floor and the music moves your feet as if it takes over your body and soul and you go into this entire artistic flow of passion sensuality and emotion...love it!! cant wait to start..

monday and tues evening was spent with gabe..i can only meet him in the evenings cuz of his attachments and the fact that his boss being present there means knocking off at 6.30pm so gah but i miss him so much...gonna meet him later for easter vigil mass..CANT WAIT!!

hmmm so on wed went out with henry from attachments [everyone reading this please note that he is just a friend and no i dont like him...totally...NOT..MY...TYPE], watched a movie [step up 2 which was totally awesome cuz the music selection was perfect-o] and then brenda met us and we window shopped till brenda and i had to go....OH OH OH I TRIED ON THIS TOTALLY SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET TOPSHOP DRESS!!! it screamed italy!! mind u i saw something like this IN italy but..moolah uh-uh aint gonna spend it there..too ex..

anw...so after that we went off to GWC to eat the 5 buck meal and then off the BSC for brenda's first confession and my very very long overdued confession.. father suyono was the priest and when i said my last confession was 2 yrs ago he was like..wowo so long but never mind as long as u have come back its alright...can u imagine if my mum and da went? they havent gone in like...double digit yrs ahah...so yeah..

thurs went to BSC for holy thurs mass and then good friday with brenda...its her first and this time when i went to kiss the cross I DIDNT HIT MY LIP GUMS OR TEETH!!! im so proud!!! ahahah so yeah...gonna get ready for the vigil tonight...gonna dress formally..wheee!! but its raning cows and buffalow here so dinner plans are pushed back from 6 to 7pm...

so yeah and some 26yr old guy just started talking to me....weird right? hmmm whatever... so here're the pics

newly painted nails:

le dress i want:

my new gorgeous lip colour:

HAH!!
i love this shot ahah

2008-03-18T13:20:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT!!!

so attachments ended...

im home alone for 4 weeks cuz nobody's free..everyone's going overseas for the 4 weeks and going out and stuff but im home alone...
so i decided to lose weight again

im down to 56kg from 59..in 2 days...im very very proud!!! ahahah

starting on my 'ensure' diet..266cal/can and it can be used as a meal substitute or a drink with meal...either or..but for now im using it as a meal sub..

so ive had 2 cans = 532cal + this weight loss candy thing that is 15.8 per sweet therefore ive got 547.8cal in me wheeee...

then im meeting gabe later for dinner so ive gotta go get more...or i'll get the 1kg tin powder thing thing..

k so anw...my GPA fell by 1 full point...u know how fucked up this is!?!?!?! i was 'weeping' in the corridors of my ward ahahaha...when i told yiqi she was like...wow u dont look like the 3.962 kinda face....well that was then...so yeah...sucks like fuuuuuck!!!!!

hmmmmmmmmmmmm....anyone free???

2008-03-09T16:50:00.002+08:00

ah

INCUBUS ROCKED!!!! IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!

im lazy to upload the pics and vids...i'll update another day cuz im rushing a report ahah sorry duuuudes!!!!

soon soon

INCUBUS!!!

2008-03-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

alright so first week of attachments....
how is it?

FANTAB!!
im doing so so so so soooooooo much more than the prev one..its so cool..i like totally took out the iv plugs easily..how cool!!! the ward is HUGE!!!! coming from ward 4 where it was like..small..this is a C class male ward so yeah its huge..alot to do cuz most if not all cases from OT or ICU come here..team 1's the busy one..team2's busy too but team 3 is super slack..im in team 3 so i make it a point to help mirah or gek or yiqi

the cast are more or less the same..gek,amirah,kelyn,yiqi,nway nway [this is the peeps in my shift] there are some more new peeps like li shen and henry and yu jie

some...some!! injured a pt and some are really blur [please dont assume it is you who ever reading this...if u do..its not my prob] and some just lick boots

anw

AN aisha whom i worked with yesterday thought i was yr2..she exclaimed during break when mirah and i were talking about us being yr 1..well i guess its a compliment..right? cuz henry this yr 2 guy thought i was 19..do i look that old? does she exclaim cuz she was afriad i made a mistake while she was away bathing a pt with kelyn [she told me to lookafterbothcubicleschangebedsheetstakecareoftheIMHpatientandrecordI/O]? i mean the pt losing his wallet scare was kinda..hmmm a first but we all agree [in the silence of the duty room] that this was the pt's fault..cant disclose what it is la but nvm...

im looking forward to my 2nd week in the wards..im gonna push myself to do more and step out of my comfort zone.. I CANT WAIT!!

my feet hurt from the CONSTANT walking but its the price to pay for learning and helping my friends...it started hurting from tuesday and its been intensifying more and more as the days go by..yesterday was really bad to the point where i was forced to take baby steps at a snails pace..it HUUURRRRT!!! gabe and i were like so so so so tired and in so much pain that by the time we hit my place we were playing the one word per person to form a sentence game..i acctually slept at taka..i was soooooooooooo tired!! prev 2 days were just 2 hours of sleep each..torment!!!

thurday i went for melia's farewell party after shift..tons of fun!! kinda sad cuz she just left like 4 hours ago..sigh...oh well... she'll be back and there's alwasy msn..next one going is jon..then io mayb so then its gonna be just chris dan and my sis...

sigh ah well...

tired..
sleepy time now

2008-02-24T22:23:00.001+08:00

so
im hooked onto french and the saunders
crazily hooked
like nicotine addicted hooked
like coke mixed mushrooms hooked

attachments commence in approzimately 9 1/2 hours..how wonderful

gah..think tmr morn i'll burst in with a british accent going 'top of the morn'in to ya' and like tip my imaginary top hat..gah F&S's teenage clip is too darn funny

hmmm i want 6-8 inch heels..ive mastered my 4 inch ones already
so i think im ready to go on the greater heights..get it? height? ahaha k nvm

need to pee...or shit
need to pack my bag for tmr [i dont like AH]

OMG AMANDA AND I ARE DISCUSSING THE CRAZY KOREAN BOYS VID AHAHAHA

k gonna go now..cya

2008-02-23T21:47:00.002+08:00

so well FINALLY!!! exams are over

about time

now?

attachments

not really looking forward to it but gah oh well bite the lemon and suck it up..thats life

gonna be posted to AH ward 13..surgical ward..where in the world isit man i dunno mann...hope to meet some ppl from my ward on the way there...
im semi watching/listening to the korean drama 'My Girl'

got hooked on to it thanks to mum..but now..dont really feel like watchin it..beginning's boring..very boring..thinking of fast forwarding it but nvm la

been going out with gabe lately and we've been squabbling alot..
[gabe i know you're gonna read this and agree with me]
i just dont want that so ive decided to juz like talk a short while for the next 2 nights until i see him again on monday..
i dont want to squabble cuz i get that sickening feeling and that persistant nagging telling me that maybe breaking up is better but i know that's bull shit so a short break is better than break up
i think we all can agree on that...

well yeah so gah not looking forward to attachments
seth's birthday tmr so yeah..the boy's gonna be4..ahaha so cute ahaha

2008-02-17T19:17:00.003+08:00

k so valentines was spent doing a paper but the day after was..nice ahaha..
gabe got me two roses and a box of chocs...so sweeeet ahahah

im not suppose to be blogging now but im sorry man...i juz got done with bio and im gonna do final rev soon...

i havent started on my PNPE..thats profession nursing and patient education for all you non nursing peeps out there reading this now..im superly superly tired...and screwed..dont understand a single thing from pnpe and ive got SAQs to ans..3 SAQs..atleast childbearing was all mcq so that wasnt so bad...this is like 40 mcqs to save my life and then 3 SAQs...mind you..SAQs are not the one sentence or one word crap.its like..describe...explain and ya dah ya dah on a four word sentence which is really half a page's worth of knowledge..and lets just say..i didnt pay attention to lects cuz dammit the lecturers are major pain in the asses..they read straight from the slides..look i can read!!

i made it through primary and secondary school...I CAN READ WHATS ON THE PAPER INFRONT OF ME!!

so yeah...ive got like...[minus travelling time and all the unecessary bits inbetween tmr] ive got less than 6 hours to cram approx 13lects..and memorize about 7 of them for my SAQs..flying sitty sassafrasses..

so yeah...gonna rev on bio now and get started on the remaining part of PnPE..thank god i studied a little b4 this..wheeeee!!!!

2008-01-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

k so long time no update...
so quick one:
for the past week incase you've not noticed..my HIM and ville craze is in full force..and that calls for the vid update..please watch it man..its super funny shit..especailly when bam bam and ville are talking bout barefootedness and religion..funny as hell i mean...it was super funny... and then the sexy version of join me [live] way back in like early 2000..

ive got these great venues to film my vids
probs:
1.exams around the corner and ive not touched my books...TONS of lects to memorize.

2.after exams are the attachments so bah [incubus concert..i got my tickets for 95 unlike the suckers that are getting them now!! bwahahaha]

3. i dont have a very good vid recorder...so the quality isnt there and ive gotta settle lighting issues cuz most of the shots will be at night and they're gonna be like on the roads...super public

4. i need a good looking guy.... [the hardest thing to do!!]

I NEED TO LOOOOOSEEEE WEEEEEEEEEEEIGHT!!!!!! I HATE MY FATS!!!!!!

k villle time!!

this is 4mins long...ville's funny

more funny shit but longer...no not the shit..duration: 7mins..

feel ville's hotness!!!!

WILLE WALO DREAMS!!

2008-01-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

i finally had a dream of ville...after a good whole year!!! oh baby ville my love...ahahaha
[oh gabe dont kick a fuss u know what i mean]

i start late today...and tmr so..yay sleep in but i cant cuz mum will probably ask me to hang the clothes again....im in the mood for guitaring so yeaah cya around!!!!!!!

VILLE!!!
COME INTO MY DREAMS AGAIN PLEASE!!!

PICTURE MADNESS NOW!!! [i need new pics]
im too lazy to upload the rest cuz...yeah...ville's too hot and its jamming up my com

2008-01-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY ANGEL!!!! SHE/HE GAVE ME CHOCO MINT AND MENTOS!!!!@ AHAHAHA

nothing much today...im not going to PnP lect tmr morn..what for? im sleeping in the LT for 2 whole hours..might as well sleep comfortably on my bed..yay!!

so yeah..meow....gonna write to my mortal now..

2008-01-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

A - About You;- cass cass who's obsessed with HIM and mints wakaka

B - Best Friends; gabe and grace..double G ahah

C - Crush; BEANIE BOY!!! WHO I SAW ON FRIDAY!!! SO HAPPY!!

D - Dad's Name; Kwek..booyah!!

E - Easiest Person To Talk To; gabe

F - Favorite Band; HIM!!

G - Gummy Bears Or Worms; gummy bears.. especially those really soft ones..like its melted but its not..oooooo yum!!

H - Hometown; singapore..but i miss san fran..

I - Instrument; guitar...and as soon as dad retires and takes up classes i can get my BC rich

J - Job; musician/back up singer/broadway actress/bio teacher

K - Kids; can be cute but irritating none the less

L - Longest Car Ride; from SG to taman negara..omg can die!!

M - Milk Product.; cheeeeeeeeseeeeee

N - Number Of Siblings; 1 older sister...HELLO!!!

O - One Wish; FOR MORE WISHES so i can wish for me and my friends

P - Phobias; heights,flying insects

Q - Favorite Quote; ah snneh snneh

R - Reason To Smile; almost everything

S - Song You Last Heard; shores of california by the dresden dolls

T - Time You Woke Up; 10.44am...alarm didnt go off..rawr!

U - Unknown Fact About Me; a tad too sentimental

V - Vegetable; CABBAGE!!!! WHEE

W - Worst Habits; very hot headed

X - X-Rays You've Had; 1..for the NYP health screening at the beginning of school

Y - Your Favorite Food; Subway's 6' with lettuce,onions,honey mustard and extra bacon!!

Z - Zodiac Sign; gemini

*You.Can.Only .Type.One.Word.Not as easy as you think.*

Where is your cell phone ?`infront

Your hair?`wavey

Work?`student

Your father?`hall

Your favorite thing?`love

Your dream last night?`plain

Your favorite drink?`water

The room you're in?`study

Your pet?`goldfishes

What do you want to be in 10 years?`successful

Where did you hang out last night?`hotel

What you're not good at?`maths

Where you grew up?`singapore

The last thing you did?'dinner

What are you wearing?`clothes

What aren't you wearing?`contacts

Your computer?`FUN

Your life?' gah

Your mood?` okay

Missing ?` gabe

What are you thinking about right now?` tattoo

Your favorite color?`purple

When is the last time you laughed?`dunno

Last time you cried?`dunno

**another quiz yayyy..

1.Obsessed with smoke?♥ not really..

2. Are you tall?♥ im tall to me... [155cm]

In your pajamas?♥ yup...tee and shorts

Left handed?♥ right handed but lefties are cool!!

LAST :
1.Friend(s) you saw:♥ gabe

2.Talked to on the phone?♥ grandma

3 . Person to IM you:♥ grace

4. Was today better than yesterday:♥ eh...not really...today's funner

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thingyou did this morning?♥ groan

Q : Do you have anything botheringyou?♥ money to buy pretty shoes

Q : Smile often?♥ i try to...need to get a sugar rush..

Q: Do you wish upon stars?♥ noooope..

Q : Where did you sleep last night?♥ nice comfy bed...mmmmm comfy

Q: Why did you sleep there?♥ cuz the hall was too hot...and beds ARE MEANT to be slept upon

Q: When was the last time you cried?♥ no idea..

Q: What are you listening right now?:♥ shores of california by dresden dolls

Q : What's your favorite month?♥ june and december..

Q : How many kids do you want/have?•♥ 2...so one wont feel lonely...boy to carry on the family name and girl to i dunno...REPRODUCE?? ahahah..i want the boy to be older..so we can educate him on the ways of metal..bwahahaha

EMOTIONS:

1. Are you missing someoneright now?♥ gabe...im sorry for not talking to u much today..chores chores chores but i cant wait to talk to u later~!!

2. Are you bored?♥ YES!! U HAVE NO IDEA!!

3 . Are you native?♥ yes...i guess...unless i find out im from penang [peranakan]

4. Are you Irish?♥ no but i want to be...i'll have an excuse when celebrating st patrick's day

5 . Are you Asian?♥ yesssshhhhhh

6 . Are you Italian?♥ no but i love italy so i wanna be italian cuz the lifestlye...le dolce vita

7. b*tch 0r Fl*rt? for girls..dota or basketball for boys?♥ im both a bitch and a flirt..both brought out thanks to poly

8. Do you have a crush on someone rightnow?♥ beanie boy but its fading cuz i dont see him anymore

FACTS :

1.Last city you lived in besides theone you do now.♥ wow...errrr....san fran but that was ages ago...however might be going to florida in june for 3 weeks..getting an apartment and all [ami james and chirs nunez!! OMG!!! orgasmic]

2. Natural hair color.♥ black...but i need to redye my hair cuz my dye job's fading like crazy

3. Height...♥ 155cm..YAY SHORT PPL!!

4. Eye color♥ dark brown

5. Lefty/righty:♥ righty but lefties are cool!! i wanna be a lefty

6. Favorite color/s♥ royal purple, black,red,blood red,maroon,hot pink [warm colours]

7. Date of birth♥ 7th june 1990

8. Favorite thing in the wholeworld?♥ family,gabe,friends and everything HIM

2008-01-20T19:39:00.000+08:00

okaaaaay well the week went well...

spent the whole week worrying about bio exam on firday which went quite well..didnt study for CNS and such but yeah i guss i can get a C or B..not an A..i guess...we're also playing angel and mortal [so IJ man]..so to my angel...wassup wassup!!!

the whole day eric clapton's you look wonderful tonigh has been playing...OMG WHAT ARE U PPL TRYING TO DO??? GIVE ME A RECOLLECTION OVERLOAD??? GAH!!

CNY is 2 weeks from now...fast...that means exams are 3 week from now...omg...thats too fast!!
k nvm worry about exams later...i saw this pair of too gorgeous looking heels..they dont have it on the website but they are too cute!!!!
ive gottta have em...50bucks though so i hope they have it at the factory outlet store...

i cut my hair today
feeling lighter and joyfuller ahaha

k short post..cuz i wanna do all of rosh's blog quizzes..so wakakaka

2008-01-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 7 MONTH ANNIVERSARY LOVE!!!

well today is [look above] and i had my HA test too..paniced like crazy la but i got what i want

1.thorax and lungs as my test topic
2. Ee Geok what'shername as my examiner

and i passed!!! barely but a pass is a pass none the less...
then hung out with kelyn,yen yen,liliy,joanne and amy and we talked talked talked talked like crazy...hmmmm tutorials were BAH!!! boring as fuck but the sociology tut was darn fun...1 1/2 hours of pure sheer fun ahhahaha...

went to meet gabey love and we went to GWC to eat subway...we had a fun time in all i mean...this post is short cuz too many things happened and i really cant rmb it all ahahaha....

QUIZZZZZ TIIIIMMMMEEEEEE~~~

The Letter 'A'

Are you Available?~ nope im with gabe
What is your Age?~ 17 turning 18...in june
What Annoys you?~ alot of things...none i can recall at present

THE LETTER 'B'

Do you live in a Big house?~ not really..my condo's rather small..city area
When is your Birthday?~ 7th june 1990

THE LETTER 'C'

What's your favorite Chocolate?~ mint dark chocolates
Who's your Crush?~ nobody i can think of
When was the last time you Cried?~ last friday but thats then

THE LETTER 'D'

Do you Daydream?~ when do i never?? thats the correct question
What's your favorite kind of Dog?~ pekineses!!!! then the westie and then huskies
What Day of the week is it?~ monday night

THE LETTER 'E'

Have you ever been inthe emergency room?~ nope...
Did you had a crush dat startsw/letter E?~ eh nope...barely know ppl whoes names start with E

THE LETTER 'F'

Favorite Flower?~ roses...

THE LETTER 'G'

Do you chew Gum?~ yup...when i start i cant stop..
Are you a Giver or a taker?~ mostly giver...
THE LETTER 'H'

What's your Height?~ 155...short and proud of it
what color is your Hair?~red-ish copperish black-ish...long and needs to be cut

THE LETTER 'I'

What's your favorite Ice cream?~ COOKIE DOUGH!!
Have you ever Ice skated?~ yup but i havent in a long long time
Do you play an Instrument?~ guitar and vocal cords ahahah

THE LETTER 'J'

What's your favorite Jelly bean?~ buttered popcorn..mmmm
Have you ever heard a really hilariousJoke?~ tons...but i cant rmb anw hhahaa
Do you wear Jewelery?~ earrings and rings and bangles and my heartagram necklace ahaha

THE LETTER 'K'
Who do you want to Kill?~ .....
Do you want Kids?~ yesh!!!! ahahahah

THE LETTER 'M'

Whats your favorite Movie?~ tons...QOTD,blood and chocolate and AVP
Do you still watch Disney Movies?~ only when i happen to flip to them
Do you like Mangoes?~ eh not really

THE LETTER 'N'

Do you have a Nickname?~ cassie casscass cassiepoo sassypoo sassamania
What's your favorite Number?~ 5
Do you prefer Night over day?~ yes...less piercing on the eyes

THE LETTER 'O'

Whats your One wish?~ to be with gabe

THE LETTER 'P'

What one fear are you most Paranoid about?~ heights..-shivers-
What's a Personality trait you look for in the opposite sex you like?~ true love and genuinity
Are you Quick to judge people?~ no...only when u step on my toes then yeah i'll judge u

THE LETTER 'R'

Do you watch Reality tv?~nope

THE LETTER 'S'

Do you prefer sun or rain?~ rain...nice and cold
Do you like Snow?~ yup...its so wintery...so young

THE LETTER 'T'

What Time is it?~ 1043pm
What time did you wake up?~6am

THE LETTER 'V'

Whats the worst veggie?~ celery....YUCK!!!
Where do you want to go on Vacation?~finland.. get all my HIM merch

THE LETTER 'W

What's your Worst habit?~ losing my temper easily

THE LETTER 'X'

Have you ever had an X-ray?~ yeah and it was so cooooool
Do you own a xylophone?~ nope..as a kid yeah

THE LETTER 'Y'

Do you like the color yellow?~ nope no likey
What Year were you born in?~ 1990
Whats one thing you Yearn for?~ GABE!!

THE LETTER 'Z'

Whats your Zodiacsign?~ gemini
Do you believe in the zodiac?~ no but its fun to read and its kinda true

2008-01-10T12:04:00.000+08:00

wow so the last post was like chirstmas eve...ahah!! sorry babe/guys...

well sweethearts,
currently im in school bloggin when i SHOULD be researching..but yeah hah!!..yana playing wonderful tonight..kinda reminds me of mark..miss him but yeah im glad to be with gabe!! ahaha....

hmmm so new years eve was spend like this...

went over to angie's place with gabe and rosh and jeining and vic and shema..wheee...steamboat and grill so it was super nice..ate like crazy then we left [gabe and i] to go out and walk around before i had to meet my rents and sis at the countdown party happening at CHIJMES...the music was great but the sound system didnt do any justice..so bah!!...that caused dad to go all belistik on the mum and i while sis,melia and daniel went to raffles place to get some drinks..when they got back mum let me hang out with them ahaha..wheee so we took the bus down to Spicez near SBC and ate wonderful oily prata...

we got there around 11.45pm adn we waited
and waited
and waited
and waited

soon the clock stuck midnight and all the workers there had like party poopers and those whistles and those 'PEEEEEEEHHHH!!!' thing things so yeah...ahah they were poping balloons and stuff so bah....then the food came and it was oily prata!!!! and MILO DINOSAUR!!!

WE ALL GOT HIIIIIIIGH ahahaha...yeah..

so then school started and everyone was still in the chirstmas spirit...all carols and yeah!!! ahahah... then the proj and presentations started...and now we're here in jan 10th 2008...

hmm k i guess thats all for now... oh i passed my skills lab retest...now there's the HA assesment and the bio pract test thats next week..

3 weeks till exams...

XD

gabe if could play it i would ahahah:

Wonderful Tonight

Eric Clapton

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.

She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.

And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"

And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see

This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.

And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"

And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see

The love light in your eyes.

And the wonder of it all

Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,

So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.

And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,I say,

"My darling, you were wonderful tonight.

Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."

2007-12-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

wow....its chirstmas eve night...9.48...thats like less than 2 hours more till christmas...i liked this year's hotel stay..got super close to my parents...im slightly bigger...gained a dress size or 2 but my outfits were turning heads...gabe..u know ahaha...

anw....wanted to go to midnight mass but cant go with sis cuz she doesnt like it [she's with her friends] then nobody wants to go with me..gabe's out with the guys so yeah nvm la ahahha..kinda like spending time with my mum and dad at home...it was quite sad that my mum had to PLEAD me to stay at home with them....it showed me how much my sis and i have been out of my parents' lives..though we're physically there..we were never really with them...

2hours till the clock strikes midnight...chirstmas...juz kinda sucks that soon the chirstmas spirit will vanish from the streets and malls....kinda sucks...really ahaha...

i'll upload the pics another day...friendster's cocking up like mad and ive gotta like change the size of the pics...no patience for it...which is a pity since its christmas soon...hmmm

well...

merry chirstmas!!!

2007-12-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

well now its been a week since i went for camp..ahah which was totally fun and there's too much to blog about...too much...army's coming...better get your armor ready to fight..or cower..either will do...

so spent the last few night with gabe shuffling from my place to his then i got kicked out last night and had to come home at like 11 so fucked up and shit but fuck care la im juz too darn happy i spent the days and nights with him...mum and dad are coming him tonight so there goes freedom but im kinda glad cuz that means i dont have to clean up all over again man ahhahah....everytime they leave i feel i become like my mum in her pushy naggy do this and that now way....

fio bought a preeeeety hoodie from HK for melia my sis and i...she got melia this earthy greenish hoodie with pandas on it and its too darn cute ahaha...sis got this cream coloured hoodie with star prints on them...i got this multi-printed kiddie thing thing...super cool ahahah looks so mango ahah..wheeeeee....

gabe's out with the guys...sis is going off to school and so im alone again..gah..so when one's alone at home and there's dirty laundry to be done....wash the clothes...yes rosh inner aunty ahaahhaha...what to get mum and dad for christmas....

2007-12-12T21:48:00.001+08:00

k so today was super funny as hell

started today waking up at 6 am [my body's more or less been conditioned to wake up at 6am] and just listening to the cool dark 6am environment outside my window...darn it..it's raining cats and dogs...no way am i going to brave that kinda weather to get to school early when class starts at 11..no frikin way...so told rosh and told yen yen then checked what time yaso was going to school and decided to sleep in till late and left to meet yaso who told me 9am to meet but she acctually meant 10 so i got to outram at 9.30..waited which i didnt mind so whee..ahaha

tested her for her skills test later today and YAY SHE PASSED!!!! and she stupidly but a hohoho merry chirstmas behind it...stupid girl la she..ahaha

met gabe in school for awhile then waited for rosh to end b4 gg to far east for her shoe shopping...

ahah we were STARVING!!!! constantly complaining from the moment we met in school till we were in pizza hut waiting for the stupid waitress to come get our order..if i wernt me..i'd get irritated with my whining..ahahah

decided to eat at pizza hut..cheaper and i got talked into it ahaha....it took us a million years to get our orders taken down and trust me..if they included that into the 'served up to u in 15mins or get your money back' shit i wouldnt have to pay for my lunch...the food was good

it came with soup of the day..mushroom soup..which tasted like chicken broth after awhile...rosh has this weird ass idea to eat it with the parmesean cheese....omg..it was sick and i being the equally stupid shithead i am decided k try it...its two of ur fave things so yay....how the hell do u eat that man rosh..it was siiiiiick!!!! wrong gross inedible!!! eck!!...se continued doing so k..omg..can die...ahahaha along with starvation man...gross out and starved i finished my soup but oh wait look ppl offering slow service!!! so wheee wait wait for food...went high on starvation and were wondering of we could finish the whole bottle of parmesean cheese...hmmm

so our orleans baked rice thing was really good...like i was impressed...ahah the last time i ate there was bleh ahah...

every bite of rice or what ever...has a mountain high pile of cheese on it..both of us doing that...by the time we were remotely done with our baked rice we had emptied out 3/4 of the bottle...boy it was FUNNY!!! hahahaha laughed like mad man ahaha...so we ordered chicken karaage and it was nice too but bah..too full...but...determination to finish the bottle of cheese drove us [mainly rosh] to add cheese with every bite of chicken she took...now that...was a good idea ahaha

task done...we finished the bottle of cheese

ahaha..now to get the bill...ages passed..my body aged...so finally got the thing and then went to the whoever at the make believe counter and paid...didnt wanna spend my life in there man..it was such a looooooooooooooooooooooong wait...

k so walked around PS...shoe shopped then walked down orchard to far east...got slippers instead of shoes ahah whee...then we went to gwc to get more candy canes....and then we found out watsons's such a rip of!!! they charge 2 boxes for 6.90 and cold storage was selling 2.95 per box of 12...cheap shit!!! ahahah so we got them...this ang moh woman was like whacking the whole thing man..all boxes so we asked and she said yeah juz take and so yeah!!! CANDY CANES!!!

here come the fun aunty moments....carrying cold storage plastic bags...started going high then as i verbalized my plans on my washing clothes spree and it was like...fucking hell i AM turning into a frickin aunty!!! ahahah

sigh..but today was fun...too much to type and too many funny ass moments to be put in words...u may not understand what im saying but i sure do...ahaha

to rosh...

EMBRACE YOUR INNER AUNTY!!!

2007-12-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

well i took a little too much

took 3 today..it was like a 30min interval between the 1st and 2nd then like 2 secs between the 2nd and 3rd...eyes are dilated..pulse is slightly faster than norm and woah..bright lights...loud noises...

anw doing my research now on gastroenteritis...bah thats all ive gotta say...thurs is presentation day...89 presentation in the morn then 88 tut presentation in the afternoon...gah...tmr ive got like an hour of class but im going for my group meeting then lect...so...priority....group meeting...besides i wanted to skip but couldnt cuz i forgot to pass my card to my friend(s)

gabe's really stressed...his exmas and all...he went back but he promised to quit..i dont blame him..he wanted to hide it from me but he decided to tell me so..YAY!!! AHAHAHAH...i mean..im not dissappointed or anything..i really not..neither am i angry or whatever crap u know? its alright..as long as he wants to quit and makes the effort..go ahead...ahah i trust u baby love ahah

tmr i might be going out with rosh to fareast...trying to get her to get kin lai and grace to come with us ahahah..but no money to buy clothes so how ahaha..

2007-12-09T14:23:00.000+08:00

well....friday started well...take a look for yourselves...

'U have no idea how frustrating it is for me to find out my mp3 is so fucked up this morn…I was fumbling about with that then it couldn’t work so switched to the lappie but it kept going into sleep mode..

hi woman beside me..hope u have fun looking at my com screen…im a teen I do weird things…I don’t care…

I realize ive got terrible anger issues..im like shouting and cursing like this mad insane being that should stay in my dreams where nobody can find it…life’s so frickin irritating..tahank god I charged my lappie…and got the seat on the mrt im typing this thing on so that my com doesn’t go into sleep mode… fucking technology can suck ma ass fuck…lappie’s giving tonsa probs

Replying on the bet on it parody to keep me sane…smiling at your lappie screen isn’t as bad as smiling to yourself while listening to the radio on the street,,,rosh and I have tonsa experience on it..you can BET ON IT!! BET ON IT!! BET ON IT!!! Ahaha….omg guy prancing about funny as hell…darn its laggin k its not now…BOOYAH!!! RESISTING URGE TO DANCE ALONG WITH IT AHAHA

Gonna let rosh watch it later while we walk..k maybe not..im not sure…gotta work on ma swaang gotta do my own thang…-licks window and smacks in fancy pansy way-…im biting my lip in the attempt to suppress my laughter,,,its working but the smile is not fading away..k toa payoh already..thast good…that means I wont be late…YAY!!!
Wheeee prance prance…maybe I’ll see beanie boy later…hoping..rosh juz msged me ‘I juz reached..rawr’ in her rosie way…im 3 more stops away…been typing since city hall…will stop as soon as I reach bishan or after leaving it…yup now I think…watch vids and be happy..dont let small things hinder u from being 100% u and more!!!! Feel the music..which I did from outram to raffles..'

yeah i was typing on the train...the rest of the day went well...studying wilth gabe....WHAT STUDYING!!! that monkey made it impossible to type continuously. it took me 2 hours to type 40 words....but ive finally finished my assignment...today...sunday wheeee...yay!!!

the show, a crazy christmas, yesterday was soooooooo funny!!!! it was so singaporean with sebastian tan doing his getai version of rudolf the red nose reindeer...hosan made all of us roar with laughter and dick lee's bro, jon, did this new song called pulang mari la pulang...from geylang sipaku geylang...that folk song we love....pam oei did the rock-ed up ver of i saw mummy kissing santa claus...fun part??? TIED IT IN WITH ENTER SANDMAN!!!! BOOOYAH

found out most of the cast in the line up are peranakan...so ive come to a conclusion...peranakans have the arts in our blood...ahah my ever so proud peranakan genes are speaking here...which reminds me...i need that kebaya top for CNY...and..ever seen a skinny peranaka woman?...our hips give us away loves...so im scrapping the non-exisitant diet plan and embracing my nonya life ahaha...whoohoo!!!

mama made my fav sambal ikan bilis, belachan kang kong, steamed egg [havent eaten in like 5 years mind u] and otak otak...soooo seeedaaaaaap!!!! so nice....then i had vegetarian noodles for breakfast today and mum baked the store bought pumpkin pie...had otak otak again...ba chang nonya and the original one ahah...drinking honey woater so i dont get some sore throat thing cuz the weather's so erratic...but its cold and i love it so so much...started at 10.30 and then its been a constant start-stop affair....cold air wafting into my room and setting my senses on the ultimate high....

i love december...love is in the air...and...i can wear long sleeves wenever i want..mmmmmm 'winter wonderland'

QUIZZEY

2007-12-06T11:38:00.000+08:00

1. So what will we call you?- cass

2. And how old are you?- 17

4. You see your bf kissing another,what would you do?- walk over, ask him whats going on then slap him..walk away..but my baby wont do that

5. Yay!You got a free holiday,South America or North Korea?- south america..wheeeeee SAMBA!!!

6. What would you do if a teacher of the opposite sex hit on you?- KICK HIM IN THE NUTS!!! then run to the principle...the class as witness..my act was one of self defense..

7. Right now do you prefer a Strawberry Milkshake or a Banana?-banana milkshake

8. Is your phone within a meter radius of you?- its within a 3cm radius of me..how's that ahaha

9. Wait, are you a guy or a chick?- CHICK!!! BUCK BUCK BUCK!!!

10. What are you wearing?- HIM dark light band shirt which gabe bought for me and my green skinnies

11. What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?- brown..bench..whee

12. Are you doing this just because you're bored?- yes...and im trying to steer away from the comm proj

13. What season is it right now?Do you like it?- summer all year round but it rained alot yesterday so its cool...yeah i like it but i want it to be cold...like brrrrrrrr cold

14. Who do you think you're going to spend New Year's with?- family..as usual...but i like it

15.Was last New Year's enjoyable?- kinda...mark called and told me i was the best thing that happened to him...guess for both of us it was short lived but heck it man...ive got gabey..the one and only

16. I'll betcha you miss someone right now.- GABE!!!!! MY LOVE!!!

18. Can you type over 60 words per minute?- no idea...dont bother to time myself either ahah

19. Are you high?- somewhat....ran up and down and alot of adrenaline pumping thru my veins

20. McDonalds or KFC?- eh none but i have to choose so kfc

21. Krispy Kreme,Donut King or Wendy's?- KRISPY KREME!!!!...FUCKING SWEET YAY!!! thanks melia for bringing it back for us!!!

22.Target, Wal-Mart or K-Mart?- target...good stuff...pity no joint here

23. What color is your top?- black...as usual...

24. Is that color your favorite?- one of my favs

25. Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?- nope...its work work work thru the hols for me

26. Something that's bothering you right at this moment?- comm assingment i keep delaying..due dat: monday

27. How smart do you think you are?- slightly above average...gungho but fuck u ahahah

28. Can you surf?- nope...i wanna learn though but not in sing...i dont like the water here..i wanna be able to SEE my feet in the water and not the watery mud sludge in s'pore waters...clear blue..mmmmm

29. Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films?- yes but ironically i like everything to do with horror

30. If you were given $100,would you spend it,or save it?- save75...spend 25 on....stuff...ahahah

31.If there was a large spider in the room,would you stay?- no....i mean small ones are cute but the big ones...dont touch me...

32. What time is it?-11.55am..im doing this is school

33.What do you wear to bed?- stc PE shirt and fbts...

34.Would you ever become a vegetarian or even vegan?- rosh and i went thru this question before....we wouldnt last for more than a minute

35.Where are you right now?- school...

36.Do you think your crush likes another?-well i hope its me...ahaah so thiiiiick skinned!!!

37.what is your desktop picture?- gabe and i slacking at vivo holding hands...wheee

38.Can you swim well?- eh....lets say i can swim but in an emergency no way can i swim for my life

39.Do you shop for clothes?-i'm a girl...its what i do for fun....almost subconsciously man

40.Where do you think your crush is right now?- i hope in school and that i bump into him later ahahha

41.And what are they doing?-dunno...who's they??

42.Do you believe in ghosts?- yeah...

43.Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris?-eh...paris...this time to enjoy the culture not juz sight see..ahaha

44.How about Melbourne or Rome?- rome...AGAIN!!! i love rome!!!

45. Do you have a guitar in your house?- 2...but i want an electric...B.C.RICH WARLOCK!!!!

46.Are you listening to music right now?-yup...incubus wish you were here

47.Who else is in the room with you?- in the walk way...with rosh and kelyn who's sleeping

48.In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?- hoodies...they can keep my ears warm since they always get cold then painful [big ears]

49.D o you wish you were somewhere else right now?- back 2 months ago..

50 .How often do you get onto multiply?- heh??? english please...wtf...

51.How long can you go without your mobile phone?- 5 mins...ahah yes im that pathetic

52 Do you have any enemies?- one....ahahah

53.What are you doing?- this and stoning ahahah

~~~~another quiz~~~~

1. Did you cry today?- no...im not emo...bah and that doesnt mean im anti emo k?

2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?- juz reahing raffles with grace to get the train to yck

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?- gettin ready to start up my com

5. Are you in a relationship?- GABE!!!! YAY!!!

6. Three words to explain why you last threw up?-GROSS CANTEEN FOOD!!!!

7. What color is your hairbrush?- turquoise..i think thats how u spell it

8 . What was the last thing you bought?- a drink....ice lemon tea

9. Do you think you're attractive?- okay u guess...then again no im not

10. Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?- GABE!!!

11 . Where do you keep your money?- my silver heart pouch thing thing that rosh wants but in black therefore cant find ahaha

12. What was the weather like today?- nice and cool....sun's juz right

13. Where did your last hug take place?- in school juz now..

14 . Favorite energy drink?-gatorade

15. Who are you talkin to?- rosh who is not responding to me

16. Do you miss someone?- GABE!!!

18. Are you random?- very....its a trait

19 . Do you want to cut your hair?- not cut short but cut it a little for style

20. Are you over the age of 25?- nope...im young..and cuz the law has increased the age to 18 im still a minor

21. Do you talk a lot?- yessssssss....i HAVE to!!! if i dont...i will DIIIIIIEEEEEEE!!!

22 . Do you know anyone named Daisy?- nope...

23. Do you listen to the radio?-now and then....wheee.....rosh's addicted to it

24. Last thing you ate/drank?- sandwhich and ice lemon tea

25 . Do you make up your own words?- all the time...ask my friends they can tell u ahah

26. Are you ticklish?- only when the ppl i love alot tickle me ahah weird but true

27. Are you typically a jealous person?- depending on the situation....like ville..i wanna be like him and i wanna sing like him and i wanna have tats like his and i wanna be his wife...whoooops ahahah

28 . Favorite animal?- doggie...pekinese..those who dunno how that breed looks like...internet has a purpose so use it

29 . Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R"?- rizal!!! or ryan

30. Who's the last person to call you?- sri...about the form form thing which i already gave to boss

31. Who's the last person you called?- gabe...ahaha

32. Do you chew on your straws?- yeah ahaha

33. Do you have curly hair?- no...slightly wavey yes

34 . What is the next concert you're going to?- dream theater...so im saving up

35 . Where did you go today?- school...

37. What is something you say a lot?- fuck...ahaha

39. Have you seen the movie 'Donniedarko'?- no....what is that man....weird ass name

40 Do you have to work tomorrow?- school...joy

41. What's your favorite band/artist?- HIM!!! INCUBUS!!! PANTERA TOO MANY!!!

42 . Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?- gabey baby

43. What should you be doing right now?- meeting yen yen to go for meeting

44. Do you have a fetish?- too many...ahahah

45. Are you a heavy sleeper?- depending...super sleepy means sleep in more

46 .What was the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?-SPARTACUS!!! on vcd ahah

47 . When was the last time you did the dishes?- last sunday

50. Who was the last person you hugged?- graceypoo!!!! ahaha

2007-12-06T11:21:00.000+08:00

grace joined me in the morn today wheeee...met me at tbp then came over to crash my lect for 2 hours..wheeeee gonna miss her when she flies off to hong kong for hols tmr..her flight's at like 8am so no way can send her off...so sad...

anw didnt see beanie boy today but i talked to khairul..i mean hey..why be all fucked up about it man i dont like ignoring ppl and pretending they're not there...i hate it and i hate ppl doing that to me cuz i am human and alive..

i miss gabey boy..tried calling him but he didnt pick up so yeah oh YAY ITS RINGING!!!...AHAH YAY I TALKED TO HIM FOR LIKE 2 MINS...stupid but yeah..cant wait to see him after school...YAY!!! ahahah...im so happy with myself...yay...maybe i should start on my thing thing now...hmmmmm.....my assignment ahah..k ttyl bloggie of mine...

dead in school

2007-12-05T09:11:00.000+08:00

so tired...its 9.11am and im already in school when my class starts at 11am...so frickin tired man...

didnt wanna come to school today but i rmbed that i didnt give my card to my friend to help me tap...so dragged myself outta bed and off to school i went...eyes are so dry and droooooopy...need to sleep but i still gotta study for my socio..not done yet..then at 3 ive got that remedial thing thing...i really wanna sleep...socio test at 6pm..gah...so long...didint bring my lappie either so yeah..bloggin now before the crowd comes and bye bye sanity

i think i know who the spammer last month was...i think only but not sure..its one of them..the gang..i dont understand why they react like that so irritating...had the remedial class with rosh yesterday and they came outta nowhere god knows why they're so frickin irritating...those 2 guys i swear...they had better treasure their eyes cuz if they keep this up im gonna tear them right outta their sockets..then she has this limp dead seaweed fucked too much face..its not the kinda 'im-here-to-intimidate' you kinda stare but its the 'oh....joy...bah...fun...not...boring' slap-her-awake face...omg..so tempted to go up to her with a bottle of gatorade, 'here..you look like u REALLY need this..enjoy'

GAH!!!
i think im going insane..thank god for my friends...hmmm wow..bloggin acctually makes me less sleepy ahah...think its the fast finger typing..wheeeee...typing FUN!!!!~~~~~

liliy's beside me doing her assignment...wow i havent even started man..think i'll start tonight...then continue tmr during the 4 hr break so i can enjoy the weekends and not worry too much..like final check on weekends..no so stressful HAH!!

k cass rmb...critique on the play and not what we did...on the character...dont lose track..

hmmmm i wonder why they dont hold hands..ive never seen them do it either...amirah says she's seen them kissing but hey..word of mouth..pinches of salt...
taking alot of things with pinches of salt...gonna die of hypertension then i'll be on life-long meds..ehhhhhh no..think i'll cut down my sal intake

2007-12-04T09:21:00.000+08:00

so now bloggin in school...ahah sue me...so tired...talkin to my friends and typing at the same time...im using rosh's lappie even though i brought mine...reason being i cant get internet connection...fumbles about trying to type with her keypad...sooooo weird ahah...

lecture day then its 3-4 with rosh and ms lee [scary strict lab teacher] for my remedial class...tmr's again 3-4 lab session but its the formal thing thing..

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG NOW IVE GOT INTERNET!!!! WHEEEEE...thanks to rosh for her admin no. and i/c..yeah..wheeeee

so happy!!!!
thank god i dl-ed aaf's movies man..im so frickin happy!!! it put a smile on my face instantly....the funny shit antics man totally cool man.....im hooked...and i cant dl the song!!! so sad....pouts

ahhh i cant wait for gabe to come...he's gonna use the lappie till late thats why i brought it ahah..not for my use...well technically not for my use ahah...technically...

i love u gabe!!!! ahahahh

k gotta get ready for class now...update again later...or tmr...or thurs...gotta study la..ahahah wheee

2007-12-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

now the words go as such

i SHOULD be studying my sociology for the test on wednesday
i SHOULD be...but im not

instead im like doing notes for nursing lab and watchin videos on youtube ahah
i'll read thru it later..but when's later? not sure....but later is later and i juz wanna do 2 lects...

I RMB NOW WHY I LOVE ALIEN ANT FARM!!!
their songs anf vids always put a smile on my face...im hooked onto both versions of 'movies'.

I WANT U TO BE FREE!! DONT WORRY ABOUT ME!! AND JUST LIKE THE MOVIES...WE'LL PLAY OUT OUR LAST SCENE..YOUR WONT CRY..I WONT SCREAM!!!!

AAF!!! GO!! GO!! GO!! GO!!
tmr's a long lect day...not feeling too well these few days so bah all the worser...ahah..i miss sleep...gonna sleep early tonight cuz i was all feverish this morn..hot cold in the afternoon and now...headache till god know when...bah

everyone should go watch all aaf vids...ahaha k update another day...whee sleep

2007-12-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

christmas...my favourite time of the year...it begins with the early decor up along orchard and the many remarks by friends and family as we walk by

'haiyo so early...not even christmas and they put it up already...' [dont lie...you talk like that too]

november....people worrying about who gets what present...everyone wondering where to go, what to buy for their parties, what special outfit to get or wear for the special night...

late november and soon the malls echo with carols...from the wonderful fantasy white christmas tunes to the cheena-i-cant-tolerate-this-techno-fucking-hate it versions of carols...helter skelter along orchard between the crowds as the kids are let out of school and people pack into everywhere to shop...malls start their display of christmas trees and ornaments and possible items to be made into someone's present...chirstmas cards deck the shelves of gift stores along with many other plushies that come in the same theme

then as it creeps along to december...the family comes together and the tree comes up..from morning till late slaving away to put up all the decor before night so we can juz slack...mum would play carols..blast them throughout the house as we rush and fumble with the tree...get poked as we spread the branches out and yank away at the base of the tree with the plyers[sp?]..dad' would get fed-up and throw a fit..mum would get pissed and frustrated and she too will throw a tantrum ahah...sis and i would be all hurry hurry lets get this done to do work..well her and not me...i'll be looking forward to slacking ahah...

this year was diff..the tree we had for a good 6-8 yrs finally irritated till my dad's last bit of tolerance...threw it away and got a new one which is the taller version of the very first tree i had ever know...this is like 8''...the one we threw away was like 7 1/2'...this is taller and it felt god to see it standing ina ll its glory....ahaha....mum decided to put this HUGE bow she had bought for $15 onto the tree..i love to see our tree all decked up in lights and clustered happily in ornaments: red velvet pillows shouting out 'noel', 'joy', 'love' and 'hope'., 'merry chirstmas' balls and drums and trumpets and cellos with little white bows on them..the final touch?? white and sliver smelly crystals that ive known since the day i was born..

i love christmas...this year i spend it whole heartedly with gabe...no 'mark' person in the picture...juz love...

this week...monday..nothing much...study for tues's skills lab which i failed...didnt do my meds properly so yeah...wednesday was the theory test ans it was okay...raher good..luckily i had crammed the last parts of the impt meds into my brain...thurs was meeting day and the 4 hours with my group was so wonderful..yana kept irritating me with the pic of me and her...gah...friday was meet gabe day...friday was really good...

i love my classmates and i love my baby..i hate my studies but i love my course...i love my baby
gabe i love u

to all my classmates and all my makan kakis...i love u guys so much..

to rosh...my buddy...thanks for everything...for pulling me through and banishing all my foolish thought from my mind..for keeping me sane

to khairul...i now know what we meant...i now understand..i needed time..thanks for everything...memories that will be etched in my mind...thank u

to gabey love...the love of my life...my sweetheart..my love embodied in human form...thank u for keeping me sane and keeping me yours even though i have done u wrong so many time in so many ways...this year...we broke up and made up and stayed up through the night on the phone...though apart we are together and its a wonderful feeling to know that people envy our relationship..i cant wait to be sleeping in your arms and set up that family we're so excited to set up now ahaha...people say we're young..our mums scare us ahaha but we're still going strong...

true sometimes ppl say 'i wonder who wears the pants' but i cant be bother...let them wonder...i love gabe...so so much...i love u..im so happy to be yours..

merry christmas in advance guys...i love u all

2007-11-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

another quiz just for the sake of it

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?♥yup..its really sweet...

2. A big poofy dress or a short partydress?♥ short party dress..had enough poofy dresses when i was a kid

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?♥ read...and then go awwwwwwwwwwww

4 . Group dates or single dates?♥ single...more..meaning to it

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?♥yes..i hate it...i mean..why do u do it??? so many faces till u get lost and cant get out...

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?♥no....money,slimming progs,lingerie,metal and guitars are...well...they sure are mine ahah

7. Is your hair up or down today?♥up...too darn hot...

8. Do you straighten your hair?♥ no but for the photoshoot they did and i hated it...

9. Favorite mascara?♥estee lauder...max volume...

10. Do you get your nails done?♥nope...they look like crap ahah

11. Small or large purses?♥......backpack...

12. In your purse, what are your must haves?♥ backdoor card,ezlink and money

13 . Jeans or sweats?♥ jeans...skirt ahahah

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry?♥ yes to all...ahaha

15 . Do you text message a lot?♥yes...1200 msgs last month...cranked up to 90 bucks last month..parents=pissed!!

16 . What would you do if you got pregnant?♥marry gabe and start a family as planned

17. What’s your favorite color?♥ look at prev post..thank u

18 . Heels or flats?♥ flats...heels only for special occasions

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?♥ yeah ahaha...sappy but true..im a girl...

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?♥ yeah...ahaha...addicted to make up

21. Walmart or Target?♥neither.. but target cuz ive been there once

22. Do you wear collared shirts?♥ rarely ahah

23 . Do you like preppy boys?♥ eh...no...they irritate the shit outta me...good to look at but besides that...juz mindless gibberish..most of it that is ahahah

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best?♥no..sticky and irritating...lipbalm..better

25 . Do you own any big sunglasses?♥yup...ahah 2pairs

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?♥an hour....i slug around alot....ALOT!!

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?♥ yeah..the cloth elastic ones ahah fun!!

28. Do you like skater boys?♥ahahahahaha...NO!!!! metal skaters...yeah but u cant find them here...i like rosh's ans though ahah

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?♥ too many...aahaha...way too many

30. Gold or silver?♥ silver...pretty

31 . Do you like to receive flowers?♥ for the moment..yeah but i really think it's a waste of money...

2007-11-25T18:38:00.000+08:00

well i scored a A in bio...can i say BOOOOYAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!...wow...well i hope i can do well or as well in my nursing lab test on tues...im so screwed...was supposed to write out my meds into cue card form but bought the wrong size...so im searching up on terms in the med.sheet that i dont know..whee..not

so....gabe's off at sentosa watching girls...or so thats what they thought they'd do...then they realize HEY!! more guys than girls ahaha...asses ahaha...oh and lets not forget it rained!!!! wakkakakakak...thats what u get for feeding your male urges ahaha...

starting to feel the weight of school...the projs and shit like that...this week ive got nursing lab pract test on tues and theory test on wed..next week its sociology test and the following's my law and ethics presentation that we've barely stared on...im...really not liking school

met somo on the way home from school on friday..it was nice to see an old friend...

i'll tell u guys the story of the triple potato vending machine inccident other time...

khairul and i are not talking at all..after my stupid ass of a mistake i mean hey...i dont expect him to forgive me that easily..it was a bad outburst..it wont change...he didnt reply my letter...i dont blame him...been a week now..laspsing into 2 now...yeah

i was juz drifting off in mass today when all the good and bad stuff juz came flooding in my mind..like the whole time...every moment we had juz played out in my mind...like those cliche movie scenes where the actress/actor juz sits there in some park or crowded area and allowes his/her mind to drift back into their memories..play it out...

the priest was saying the homily, his voice slowly tuned out and the first day of attachments juz played...my eyes were opened...i rmbed every word said out...it rang clear in my ear...i drifted back..like i was pulled...into my own memories...everytime i blinked the memory stopped, like it was put on pause, but then i'd relax and it'd play on again....thats how it goes

everything came back...and it ended with the same scene i ended our story with...we...walking away...i miss him..i miss my bro..my friend...

then i thought about gabe and the good..bad and too too good things...soothed me...then i'd blink...one last time..to end all memories and pull myself back from my world of living as a third person in my life...to live and critique my life as it goes by...blink..

blink...

blink...

blink...

blink...

pop..

im back here again..where my heart already broken is trying to heal...with gabe..i know i can do anything...with gabe i know my sanity is kept in sync....with gabe...my life is complete...

1. Your name plus "ness"?♥ cassandraness...ahah coolios

2. Two feelings at the moment?♥ limp and resigned..those 2 counted feelings?? ahaha

3. What are you listening to right now?♥ mindfreak by criss angel..-whispers- areuready??

4 . Done anything you regret so far this week?♥shoudve bought a diff size of cue cards

5. Describe where you are right now?♥ living room on the sofa with my laptop and watching tv

6. The highlight of your week?♥ gettin an A in bio...

7. What are you craving to have right now?♥ gabe..sleepover...viceroy

8. Who were the last people you ate with?♥ the whole fam

9. What are you scared of?♥ disappointment,failure,winning,responsibility,love,life,heights,solo

10 . Last songs you sang out loud?♥ scar by missy higgens [i think thats how u spell it]

11. Are you thinking of someone right now?♥ yeah..gabe

14. Who is the last person you talked to?♥ dad..asked him to turn the fan..with a please infront ahaha

15. Last thing you downloaded on yourcomputer?♥ franz ferdinand song ahah..YEAH!!

16 . Have you changed much this year?♥ yup...emotionally [bad and good], physically [fluctuating weight=dress size],mental[smarter hell yeah!!! more determined i think ahah]

19. Hug or kiss?♥ hugs....you feel the love and warmth juz enveloping your whole being

23. Who was the last person to text message you?♥ rosh...her 'hahax...k [smiley face]' msg ahahh

24. Where was the last place you went to besides where you are?♥ plaza singapure

26 . Do you speak any other language other than english?♥ abit of chinese and malay

27. Last thing you watched on TV?♥ prev episode of mindfreak...

28. Do you dress for style or comfort?♥ comfort then style

29 . Name someone with the same b-day as you?♥ eh....charlie from busted[was]...hah...

30. Ever had a drunken night in mexico?♥ nope...OLE!!

31. Whats the craziest thing you've done?♥ started taking off the skinnies i was trying infront of gabe..forgettin that i was in the changing room and that there were ppl looking in...whoops

32. Favorite color(s)?♥ royal purple,red,maroon,black,blue,yellow,hot pink etc

33. Who's your favorite cereal?♥ lucky charms...yummmy marshmellows

34. What is your favorite MichaelJackson song?♥ black or white..i think thats the song title

35. Who do you love?♥many but gabe's NO.1!!!! numero uno!! di yi!!

36. Any plans right now?♥ study for lab...

37. What are your plans for tonight?♥ relax and then work my ass off tmr

38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow?♥ sleeping at night

39. Last time you smiled?♥ this afternoon,gabe called while i was in the car..used my hat as a shield...

40. Who do you wanna be with right now?♥ gabe...ahah...

1. How's your life lately? scroll back up

2. When was the last time you went out?`this morn..to mass and to lunch..

3. What movies u wanna watch?`enchanted,reruns of 300 and hairspray

4.What was the last movie you saw?`i now pronounce u chuck and larry in the cinema..aeon flux juz now at home...on hbo ahah

5.The last place you went?`plaza singapura

6. Last person u saw?`dad...walked into his room...im in the hall..everyone passes by me ahah

7.Missing someone?`GAAAAAABBBBBEEEEEEE u monkey!!!

8.What made you smile today?`gabe's stupidness over the phone ahah

9. Are you scared to fall in love?`no...falling out yes

10.Ever thought you were in love?`yes and i am in love now

11. Fallen in love before?`yes yes ahah

12. What is your status right now?`attached...soon to be mrs fransis...ahah

13 . What were you doing this morning at 7 am?`sleeping...very soundly

14.What were you doing this morning at 10 am?`rushing around the house gettin ready to leave for mass

15. What were you doing this morningat 12pm?`shopping at plaza

16.Do you have a tattoo?`no but i want like...4..one on my shoulder blades, side,shoulder and ankle..if possible a full sleeve

17. Things you have to do everyday?`bathe,charge my mp3 and listen to it..sing and write,,sleep

18 . Are you a type of person who easily gets hurt?`yes...

19. The last thing you said to one ofyour girlfrends?`wow i cant rmb ahah

20. Rate your day 1-10.`7-fairly fine...

21. Did anything exciting happen today?`got high going off key to the chirstmas carols being played in the shopping mall

22. Type something that is on your mind?`omg that guy on tv was so fricken hot!!! wonder if i'll see my morning crush tmr..i hope so

23. How many things in your past do you regret? alot...so many i cant rmb them

24. Quarrel with someone recently?`scroll up again please

25.Do you have a best friend?`GRACIEPOO!!!!

26. Would you want 1 best friend or many normal friends?`both.. to have and to hold..wow sounds like marriage aahhah

27 What do you want to be when you grow up?`wanna be like a counsellor[sp?] or like listen to ppl and play METAL!!!! -MASTER!! MASTER!!!-

28. Do you like your life?`its fine....ups and down but without pain what's there to treasure

29. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?`not sure...

30.Do you have more friends that are boys.`no...girls school for 10 yrs with boy contact only from sunday school..

31. last person you chat on the phone?`gabe...wheee [omg omg omg sabastian bach!!!]

32. how long have you had friendster?`eh...dunno and dont bother to check

33. Have you ever skipped school? eh...wow...no..im so good...

34. What is the last person you message?`rizal..eh that medicine thing..what to they mean by c/c and d/c

35. any plans for today?` now...sleep

36. any plans for tomorrow?`wake..school..home..study like crap..sleep

37. any songs u lyk?`OLD SCHOOL ROCK N METAL!!!!

38. what time is it?`8.10pm

2007-11-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

these few days have been mindless torture..bio....this is what u get for startgin your revision late cass ahaa...hmm so today wasnt feeling too well and again woke up at 7am for the 2nd time this week...paniced and msged vic [thank god i took her no. from rosh yestersday]

headed down to the grassroots club which is near school for the foster parenting [FP]....so ive seen school for like 6 dayas straight with minimal sleep...so wheee not i guess...brought my portable speakers and headed there half dead and shit..met vic and i had to choose between the baby group and the seniour group....gave vic the blank face and asked what to do in seniour group and it sounded okay..asked about juniour group [rosh likes it so much ahaha guess cuz she's juz like them...3-6yrs ahaha] and found out they were gonne be like hi-5 shit and no way am i gonna do it with them man ahaha i cant stand it ahah...

so went to snr group and the room was freezing cold co immediately jacket came on..thank god i brought it ahah...waited for a long time and then finally the kids came...this small indian boy by the name of haniff was so cute!!! ahaha very friendly and like any other boy his age is obsessed with soccer so yeah..more came and then the older boys got rowdy with their soccer game so the guy incharge was all BREAK IT UP BREAK IT UP!!! and yeah...

got close to these two girls...both 8...shadina and arteeka..they're sisters and just the sweetest cutest things...so adorable!!! ahah they were so cute and initially arteeka was so shy shy and didnt wanna play then she started to talk alot which is good and then all of us kept talking la ahaha there was this other girl called amirah..very pertty and quite tall and she hung out with us la..play with them la then rosh came when it was makan time and then while they go makan i went over to the jnr group...see what they were doing..man the room stank of sweat and food and shoes...'i notice your eyes are always glued to me..keeping them there and it makes no sense at all'..paramore's still stuck in my head...well went back after that then the 3 monkeys were like sejuk sejuk [cold] so i lent them my sweater..the 2 girls share then rosh lent amirah hers...they so cute la!! they were so sweeet!!! their foster mum is so lucky to have them...

went shuffling from that room and the snr group and it was so fun ahaha...played in the jrn group's ball pool thing and then meiqin said that the monkeys were looking for me so i went over and then they gave me these pic they traced and it was so nice of them!!!!..hugged all 3 of them...carried arteeka first then shadina play play not happy then i carried her la..so cute la they!!!...ahah...brought my stuff to show rosh and yiqi ahah i miss my 3 monkeys

was so sad when they had to go..i miss all my 3 monkeys and haniff...those 4 ah..really adorable...i'll scan the things in tmr or something..IT WAS SO SWEEEEET!!!!!
when we left i was like...rosh i miss my 3 monkeys!!! all through the ride to esplanade and during studying...my jacket smells of them...their smell reminds me of my grandma house..that nostalgic small of clothes u know? yeah..so i kept my noce warm and non painful by smelling that...miss my 3 monkeys...

gonna be at my grandma's 80th birthday tmr and food food food~~~~~~ ahahah gonna be a fun day!!!! i love granny!!! ahaha

2007-11-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

so well yesterday had a major outburst..feeling better now but i ruined a friendship which im hoping will get better now though my gut tells me otherwise

anw...bio's coming up and no i havent started..when im starting..tmr or friday...someday...
hmmm...im so slacker-ish these days but i havent felt better...i mean like...WOAH talk about revamp man

im hooked onto jeff dunham and peanut comedies ahah..its so fricking funny...

had meeting today in the morn and its was super cool~~~ ahaha i love my group
role play is gonna be so fun...
then had lect and bio tut...ended at 1pm and met gabe then went over and watched jeff dunham...gabe laughed like crap man ahaha so loudly...at peanut and at achmed....

that's a-c-phlegm...ahaha u gotta watch it...

NIAO!!!!

SA-NA-TA-AH -NA..what isit some fricking indian reservation?!?!?! SA-NA-TA-AH-NA....how!!!

2007-11-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

im so tired...of everything...

sick of school...sick of home...sick of routine...sick of doing nothing and at the same time sick of doing everything..

tests are coming up and im not preped..not a good thing..

dont like being home cuz i talk the way i do with my friends and then everyone takes me seriously...sis and mum are all anal and fuck with the constant 'why u talk like that? like wanna fight wanna fight...'

fuck la mum ever thought that your boss was right?? you and your confrontational style shit..i dont give a flying fuck bout your 'feedback' sis...what with the entire take it or leave it shit..YOU put it out there so basically YOU are leaving it there for ME to TAKE!!! why the hell are you telling me not to be angry??? JUDGEMENTAL!! fucking hell had enough of this in school

gettin pissed with ppl...hi khai..thanks for patronizing my blog...and thanks for acctually noticing me in school...is haz with u? hmmmm cuz i know that when she's ther its like....INVISIBLE BARRIER THAT CANNOT BE PENETRATED..LETS IGNORE THE ONE U CALL SISTER AND LET HER FEEL WHAT U FEEL IS NORMAL...fucking hell mayb im too prissy but....fuck this man

gabe...i miss u...alot....

finger eleven's one thing..

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something

I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

i just hate how it sounds...

2007-11-10T17:35:00.000+08:00

spammer..u alien?? cuz u sure type like one...if you got balls [which i seriously doubt you were born with] then leave your fricken name not your assed up SCREEN NAME!!!!

you think u know everything? what u think my bf dunno bout my shit??? yeah he does but boy that is OLD NEWS!!!!

takes one to know one eh spammer??

2007-11-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

OMG SPAMMER!!! WHO THE FUCK ARE U!!

coward's too much of a compliment to u...too low you are...thanks gabe and rosh for standing up for me..that ass..got the guts and say it to my face asshole!!

2007-11-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm he's attached...bill's attached..all the cute guys are attached ahaha...so sad...but nvm ive got gabey baby!!! ahahah

so had meeting today...yana's not contactable...so we had meeting without her..yana...WE MISS U!!!!
hmmm we covered alot of ground with the play but the stupid microsoft word juz stubbornly refused to allow me to carry out any editing on it...fucked up..dead pissed..even now..mayb i juz need the product key...ahhh darn it..alot of stuff to edit

I GOT MY PURTY HAT!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SO HAPPY!!!! ahaha....i bought gabe his hat and he got me mine..tough time choosing which one to take..the one i bought or this other faux leather judas priest meets london cabbie thing thing ahah but i chose my purty hat!!! wheeeeeeeeeee....

hmmm still got work to do...tests are coming up...clinical lab tests start on week 7 [26th nov]....presentation and bio test on week 6 [19th nov]...beauty eh?? ahhhh life..so fun...NOT!!! i so dont know how to clean a wound!!!!!

gah!!! must study...ttyl cya....oh maybe rosh updated her blog...ahahah lemme check

phooey...none ahah k so ttyl..cya around