now i noe wad they mean when they say 'this band saved me'. aiden did..that day wen i was down,out n shitty.
its so cool n good. ive gone back to guitaring afta 2 days of contemplation and i went to drum at the arcade with grace the day afta my big break down.
i.hate.irritatin.ppl.in. .... . end of message.
k mayb nt...
gg ot turkey n all the shirts im gonna hafta wear r pink..ppl r gonna think im sme kinda pink freak...dammit....
GONNA PUT UP THE CHIRSTMAS TREE TMR!!!!

Hi, its me again
im giving up
i hate me
harse but true
Im a failure
failed guitarist
a singer with a lost passion

I hate.
I hate it when my parents tell me
what i should do
could do
and have to do
chores,future..
wait,what future?

its all bottled up in here
in my little heart
in this little frame
makin up my little life
note:
little and not petite.

I hate this
I hate being a leader
The leader who cant gain respect from her commitee
What's the point then?
Why must i b here??
Im the leader
I stand alone
I cry aloud
yet
I remain the silhouette on the wall
no facial feaures at all

I hope
The hot water burns me
to the point where the many layers
skin
flesh
bone
will all peel off
flake off
then i wont b existing in form
layer by layer it'll fade away
then mayb the cold
will bring me back and return my form
anew

Let me change my writing
my style and personality
to be me again
something they hate
the thing i adore
and not dispise for once

i hate the way my dad looks at me
when i do something i like
its depressing
i hate the way my mum acts
when i speak my mind
its demoralizing
i hate it wen my sis is rite
about my wrong
i learn through discovery

i hate me now
im giving up my guitar
i hate choir
i hate school
i hate teachers
i hate guitars
i hate drum sets
i hate chocolate
i hate food
i hate fluid
i hate my life
i hate my habitual self-pity
i hate me
i hate....
What else do i have left to hate??

You sink your teeth in
bite the blood that drains the life inside of me
and fills your soul with love and hate
and all those things you need to breathe.
My body dies but still
my soul remains eternally
in search of Caspian waves
and shallow graves explain why me?

This nightmare won't last long.
Are you Scared?
So sing this song.
I'm right there by your side.
Tonight we've got a chance

I watched the sky bleed grey
with see through shades of violent bloody stains
and felt the evil prime and wicked start a course straight through my veins.
I'm so alive, my skin so cold and fake
I close my eyes I know that now's the time to take my chance with death and realize.

Sunrise, sunset will you wash away the rain. Sunrise, sunset can you wash away the pain.

This nightmare won't last long.
Are you Scared?
So sing this song.
I'm right there by your side.
Tonight we've got a chance.

So mute and beautiful to me a promise kept on high,
an angelic look at life through open eyes.
Don't be scared we'll make it work,
we're right on time don't make things worse now
I'm right there by your side.

(Sunrise) I will avenge (Sunset) I can't pretend,
(Sunrise) I wont forget this vein (Sunset) attempt and promise kept,
just one more night to make up for the loss of love and time
here comes the sun to rid this world of see through blood and swollen light.

Sunrise, sunset will you wash away the rain. Sunrise, sunset can you wash away the pain.

This nightmare won't last long.
Are you Scared?
So sing this song.
I'm right there by your side.
Tonight we've got a chance.
The sunrise..
The Last Sunrise.