week 14..crazy.

monday and the past week's been wonderful. spending time with lenny and mama and lenny's family. dont get me wrong, i miss my family alot. i really really do but when wednesday night comes, im gonna my new family. going home with lenny everyday, sleeping with her and waking to find her by my side, pondering where cino baby is and which can of wet food can i give him today. home away from home. i love them all.

school's only enjoyable with my friends around me, lenny by my side.
i love you lenny baby. i truly do.
both you and our son are the most important people to me.
how am i going to adjust to a life spent away from you...its gonna be hard but it has to be done. in time only, in time.

had to pause for awhile to stop cino baby from biting my laptop charger wire..this boy is obsessed with string or anything that looks like it. so i gave him my rubber band, something to keep this boy entertained. he wanted company so i gave it to him. watching him, sigh. i dont want wednesday night to come. but it has to.

theory tests, practical test, icas. all part and parcel of our life in poly. sometimes we lose track of what we do and why we do it. sometimes i forget why i love someone or why i miss them. to me..i just do. however, just 1 event is enough to remind me why i did and still do.

i miss my sister. 12th july is the day my entire family packed up to aus to settle her down. i cried an hour before we had to set off to the airport. it dawned onto me that i was gonna be alone without my sister for 4 months. the family wasnt complete at home. i cried again when i had to go off to lenny's, leaving everyone there. it was horrifying. dreadful. sure i fought with my sister but being siblings is all about love and hate combined. thats what makes us human.

i love u my lumpy sister. i miss you!!