REVIEW!!

1st week of school. lets see.

HECTIC!

squish a whole year's worth of work, knowledge and credits into 6 MONTHS!! I END MY FINAL ACADEMIC SEMESTER IN MID-AUGUST DAMMIT!!! ARGH!! FUCK!! the pain and the STRESS!!

minus the fact that i gotta carry those stupid books to AND from school. oh how much it aggrivates my already bad back and my 'i'm 19 but my body screams im 50' stature. dont u love school? how fun. but it does beat working so. gah.

hmm so monday the 27th of april. i dont like this day. not one bit because tmr is my grandpa's death anniversary. 5 years

still plays out so vividly in my mind. every single detail.

today a moth landed on my bed. i saw it when i was walking outta the shower and into my room. bright and early. it was huge.yes i freaked out because it was 1. HUGE!! and 2. i hate flying insects!! and then there's 3. moths represent the soul of your past relatives. [to my family this applies]

fear then sorrow gripped my heart. kong kong,u came to remind me?
i remember. dont worry.how can i ever forget?

i just wish u were here to see how the peranakan culture has progressed. how the museum looks like. i have so many questions i want to ask on our family tree. how everyone i know is related to each other. what are the daily things i take for granted really very much dipped into our rich hearitage. how i wish u could teach me how to speak baba malay and that i wont have to resort to learning it from some other baba's book.

i just wish you didnt have to go so soon. i barely knew you kong kong. and i miss your presence in our household.

sigh. tmr i'll be in morning colours. i just want to look the part and not feel it. the sorrow and remorse. i hope tmr will be alright if not i'll..break down.