well im a troubled ass now...im thinking of smoking and drinking..im eating more than usual and blowing cash on everything i see [used to be the opp where i dont spend at all]



anw...gonna get my heartagram belt buckle this coming monday...i bought it for 35 bucks WITH a good quality fake leather belt...usual price would be 50 for the buckle itself and 10 more for the belt but i saved like 15 bucks yo!!!

and and and i got myself a heartagram pendant for 15 with chain when market price is 18 on its own+ 3 for the chain...woooot woooot...ahaha..got tonsa shirts...gabe gave me the ac/dc, led zepplin and HIM dark light shirts from KL and i bought a jack daniels shirt and a ramones one too..and and i got that conductor thing thing u know..that vest thing...ahah wheeeeeeeeeeee

k y i dont have the buckle with me is because i didnt have enough cash and i was desperate and the sales lady was equally desperate to make a sale so i paid 15 and told her i'll come back with the remaining 20 another day so i got a card and shtuff and yeah.. cant wait to wear it...now all i need is another non-stick-to-me-skin denim skirt..

so went out with grace yesterday...had a tough time finding her school but i guess bah it was fun then we went over to her place and then went out shopping and walking around plaza...

tired...meow....wanna sleep
these nights i cant seem to sleep properly..very light sleep...and then like on thurs night 11.50 when i had juz hit the 'elasping into deep sleep' mode esther calls and im not happy...then they say dunno dunno what and the phone passes to em so he then tells me that he wants his guitar and needs it tmr morn but then i wont be home and went on with me mumbling some craze ass shit and he saying yeah yeah dunno dunnno bah...put the phone down after what felt like 5 years of mindless ramblings...no apology..

nvm

i leave the guitar as planned and leave for a day of fun...around 4 he calls saying that he cant come...still no apology and i get mad, screaming my head off at my poor phone in the fashion with grace beside me shocked outta her lack of socks socks [ankle socks geddit?]

he finally apologizes in what sounds unsincere but i cant care now...get home chill...try to sleep at 1 am...then the msgs come in..msg after msg after msg and it was like being held at gun point...omg..i wanted to cry..im switching off my phone tonight...i need goooood sleep

going to vivo tmr with ma fam, its kinda like my 3rd home [tiong baruh being my 2nd]...hoping to get a denim skirt tmr...and maybe some cute accessories....

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep