im suppose to do my work but i havent been able to cuz..i just havent

alotta shit on my mind but i cant get it out. i wanna tell someone but there seems to be no one i can turn to. sad as this sounds:

gabe is not in the picture of my life.
it seems to be just me.
alone.

even though I KNOW there are people i can turn to. my close buddies that will never let me down but...each has his/her own group of peeps. i seem to be the only one that is alone in tuts and practs and breaks. i dunno whats happening.

like a feather floating in time and space. slowly drifting to the ground.
like sand shifting and falling through fingertips of glass
i feel lost and so alone.
maybe there's something seriously wrong with me.

seriously wrong.
like bi-polar or something like that. i dunno.. i hate the things now.

its raining. again. more fun love and joy.

i should be doing my work. i really should be. gastric lavage. pharmaco. feel stupid-er in lectures.

i tell u i love you but the response it a rude awakening. so what can i do?

'i dont mind.
i dont care.
as long as you're here..'