im in one of those moods again
where i frickin hate my life and juz wanna b my friend
why??

well they're...yes now is they meaning more than one..

they're like..skinny, pretty, rich, independent, smart, stylist anf juz damn lucky

they get the good looking guy, pull off even the crappiest of things..
i hate it

im like a frickin failure..i cant even keep up a diet..i'll starve man i dont care..its juz green tea from tmr on i dont care...

i hate being fat and ugly and not being able to catch his eye..i hate it that im 17 nd cant even stay out till past 12..im sick of the fact that i havent had a sleepover and i cant drink till i wake up with that bittersweet hangover..im hating it that im chinese and not caucasian or malay
i wanna b skinny and toned..no time to do so im afraid..

i need to go mad
to save the sanity
and stop this feeling