christmas...my favourite time of the year...it begins with the early decor up along orchard and the many remarks by friends and family as we walk by


'haiyo so early...not even christmas and they put it up already...' [dont lie...you talk like that too]


november....people worrying about who gets what present...everyone wondering where to go, what to buy for their parties, what special outfit to get or wear for the special night...


late november and soon the malls echo with carols...from the wonderful fantasy white christmas tunes to the cheena-i-cant-tolerate-this-techno-fucking-hate it versions of carols...helter skelter along orchard between the crowds as the kids are let out of school and people pack into everywhere to shop...malls start their display of christmas trees and ornaments and possible items to be made into someone's present...chirstmas cards deck the shelves of gift stores along with many other plushies that come in the same theme


then as it creeps along to december...the family comes together and the tree comes up..from morning till late slaving away to put up all the decor before night so we can juz slack...mum would play carols..blast them throughout the house as we rush and fumble with the tree...get poked as we spread the branches out and yank away at the base of the tree with the plyers[sp?]..dad' would get fed-up and throw a fit..mum would get pissed and frustrated and she too will throw a tantrum ahah...sis and i would be all hurry hurry lets get this done to do work..well her and not me...i'll be looking forward to slacking ahah...


this year was diff..the tree we had for a good 6-8 yrs finally irritated till my dad's last bit of tolerance...threw it away and got a new one which is the taller version of the very first tree i had ever know...this is like 8''...the one we threw away was like 7 1/2'...this is taller and it felt god to see it standing ina ll its glory....ahaha....mum decided to put this HUGE bow she had bought for $15 onto the tree..i love to see our tree all decked up in lights and clustered happily in ornaments: red velvet pillows shouting out 'noel', 'joy', 'love' and 'hope'., 'merry chirstmas' balls and drums and trumpets and cellos with little white bows on them..the final touch?? white and sliver smelly crystals that ive known since the day i was born..


i love christmas...this year i spend it whole heartedly with gabe...no 'mark' person in the picture...juz love...


this week...monday..nothing much...study for tues's skills lab which i failed...didnt do my meds properly so yeah...wednesday was the theory test ans it was okay...raher good..luckily i had crammed the last parts of the impt meds into my brain...thurs was meeting day and the 4 hours with my group was so wonderful..yana kept irritating me with the pic of me and her...gah...friday was meet gabe day...friday was really good...


i love my classmates and i love my baby..i hate my studies but i love my course...i love my baby
gabe i love u

to all my classmates and all my makan kakis...i love u guys so much..

to rosh...my buddy...thanks for everything...for pulling me through and banishing all my foolish thought from my mind..for keeping me sane

to khairul...i now know what we meant...i now understand..i needed time..thanks for everything...memories that will be etched in my mind...thank u

to gabey love...the love of my life...my sweetheart..my love embodied in human form...thank u for keeping me sane and keeping me yours even though i have done u wrong so many time in so many ways...this year...we broke up and made up and stayed up through the night on the phone...though apart we are together and its a wonderful feeling to know that people envy our relationship..i cant wait to be sleeping in your arms and set up that family we're so excited to set up now ahaha...people say we're young..our mums scare us ahaha but we're still going strong...

true sometimes ppl say 'i wonder who wears the pants' but i cant be bother...let them wonder...i love gabe...so so much...i love u..im so happy to be yours..

merry christmas in advance guys...i love u all