Saturday, September 26, 2009,
u know why i am acting this way. there's really no need to ask.
when u said stop, i did it.
when i said stop, you went ahead.
why do i want to see my close friends walk straight into the belly of the beast?
why do i want to see you experience the re-awakening of all feelings negative?
when it hurts it hurts. the words you say. and im sure that its all due to external stressors and i know i'm one of them. unnecessary.
but if you're happy i'll just be here on the side and really as long as u are happy...i couldnt care less about me and my overly emotional self.
im sorry to disappoint. im sorry for being a pain. im sorry for sticking my nose into such issues.
this is how much i care.
i do the same for the rest of my pillars and even more for family.
altruism..or so i hope to believe it is.
i'll learn to back down. i need to..my character is far too strong.
just know that..now
in this moment..
when you're soaring high up with her by your side
into the wide blue virgin canopy
look down occasionally, glance down and see
this small lil girl looking up at you with the trampoline
ready to break your fall if you ever do falter.
just remember me.
wont you sing with me
another song of freedom
its all i ever had.
redemption song
11:26 PM
